There is one simple rule that I follow I never stop ever. You start this why would you give up? Because it has not come in the time you think it should? That is what happens to most people and in the past I have had that problem also but then I realized that every one that has ever succeeded in something in life has one trait and that is they are relentless they will not stop until they get what they want. That’s all there is to it.
This process is something that takes time to learn and it gets easier just like all things in life do once we have had some successes. I excepted this to take no less then 3 years and if it comes sooner good and if it comes later good it will come and that’s that because this is what I choose to believe.
Oh I get down days, so what, big deal. You know what, you and I we are going to do it and that is that and you might write me and say I got mine before you na na na. Good.
It seems like a lot of effort and time but it is less then if I take fliying lessons and a lot cheaper, and at the end I can afford to buy a plane.
We don’t stop ever, we keep on going no matter what, no matter what happens. Some days its going to be easy and other days it will be hard so what! I want to be the director of what I will experience in my life and I’m willing to put in the time to learn it. As I’m learning it my life will get better and better.
He she lets his hers thougts drift into thougts that creat feelings that dont feel good he she could derect his here thoughts to thoughts that feel beter and then he she will feel beter. Thoughts and feeling go together what a porsen thinks thay will feel and how we think abut somthing is how we will feel. I have knotist that thoughts and feelings are totaly likt together there is no seperation.
If a porsen dus not feel as thay would like, it is because there thoughts are not where thay would like them to be. feelings are somthing we creat inside aur selves, thay are not a product of the world. Choclet dus not have a feeling we creat it with aur thoughts when we eat it and with how we think abut choclet, if we think it is bad for us then we creat negatife feelings inside of us Choclet has nuthing to do with it. How we feel is dependend on us as in how we think. We creat the feelings we exspereans we yous the world as a prop as a stage to play out what we feel or want to feel and exspereans. But we creat the feelings we exspereans.
This morning I was looking at my little card with 3.6 million dollars written on it. I was just looking at it for about oh, I think, about 6-7 minutes. I looking at that little number I just stare at the number and I just bringing up a feeling of confidence of it actually being in my bank account. I don’t try to bring up a picture of it being in the bank account, or any visual at all I just look at it and bring up more of a feeling. I’m really only interested in the exspereans of it.
As I’m getting better at it, my mind is trying to create little pictures and is almost asking questions in regarding to it. It was faintly but I was getting asked “Is this what you want?” So when I’m staring at this, I got a picture, very faint, for a split second, it was more of a feeling, a feeling of me walking down a pathway feeling taller, walking with more confidence.
We know, that money does that because when you are walking along and you have financial abundance it’s something you are not worried about, it creates confidence in various levels of your life. So you tend to walk with more confidence, you stand with more confidence. Like I was saying when you are going into a store you feel more confident when you have the financial abundance.
I reseved this image of me being confidencly abundand and I just said “Yes” to it, and I continued on. I didn’t really go into the image, because that would lead me down another path.
Now, every once in a while another little image would come up of me being in a bank, depositing money or depositing a check or something and for a second I would slip into it a little bit, and I’d be at the bank, and now I’m saying to myself “Oh, I’m at the bank, and this is the bank, where I have 3.6 million dollars sitting in my account…” I’m looking at the bank teller and I’m seeing a reaction when she punches in my account nuber, and the money shows up. It’s kind of a strange idea, but I remember having a feeling sometimes in the past when I had nothing in my account you know, I’m in there trying to get out 5 dollars and I got like 8 dollars! I felt a little embarrassed that I had nothing.
So, yah, that’s where that image would come from, I understand it. Now I’m standing at the bank with a feeling of pride and confidence. My mind was bringing these images up, showing them to me. So I injected more of my confidence into it just very quickly. The image changed and I let go of it, really quick. I go back to focusing on the feeling exspereans of having 3.6 mil.
I think, it feels like my mind is bringing me certain images, reflecting on what I’m focusing on. Where at the beginning when I started this project it was almost like my mind was trying to show me the opposite. It was almost trying to say “Well, why you are pretending that you have 3.6 mil when you dont?”
Now It’s like a meditation, because I’m staying focused on a good feeling about that money.
I’ve noticed this morning while I was doing it, a more positive feeling about money. It’s changing in many areas. I think, when we are creating something, manifesting, creating something like this or a car, anything there are many issues on many levels. We’ve probably wanted these things for a long time, but there’s been resistance and I can see where the resistance was in various places and now that resistance has started to liquidate. At forst my mind was resisting it and now it is playing along with it, that makes it much easier to stay focused on the 3.6 million dollars and on a good feeling of it.
I’m getting better positive emotions about money! That’s a funny thing, in a past I was plaing with the sports lottery {as exsplaind in the book the messenger} I relalize now that while I was working on the sports lottery, I still had negative issues in me about money, which really was working against my winning the lottery. So I had to work extra hard on creating winning lottery tickets, when in fact I had all this resistance working agenst me.
A fu years ago I put together for a short time a group of people and tried to do the lottery thing with them. But there was so much resistance, that it was actually getting horrible, the energy that was coming off was turning literally destructive, and I had to step away from the group it was getting destructive on my end. of course, I was the leader, so everything was focused and I didn’t really want to say a whole lot, and disrupt them even more by saying “Well, this is happening because of you” because that’s not really fair. So I thought it just best for me to leave it alone which wasn’t the very best thing to do either. I now relice that because of my owen resistens I atracted pepole how olsow had resistenc and it became a powerful fors of resisting abundance more then atracting it. There are only 2 options we ider atract what we want or resist it as in repel it.
But, hey, I’m getting sidetracked. There is an emotional attachment I have to an issue somewhere in the past that has to do with money. When there is an emotional issue, then it pulls on us and it can pull us away from what we are focusing on aspeshaly if it tends to be a heavy emotional issue. Like need.
Needing money to escap the life we are living.
What we are really trying to get to is a positive emotional response to money, So when someone mentions money, we get pulled by our positive emotions into positive-thinking thoughts about money automatically. It will automatically create the basis for creating more money flowing in. It becomes an automatic reaction.
Just like if we haven’t had money, we would have had negative emotions about money. So when money is mentioned, or any picture or idea of it comes up, those emotions become like giant magnets that pulls us towards the negative thoughts and ideas that we were holding about money. Which then radiates that out to the Universe and the Universe responds in kind and we stay exactly where we are. In the laking of money.
So now by focusing on the feeling the having of 3.6 mil we are programming our feelings. Now, as the feeling increases to the positive side at the same time while we are gaining that confidence and bringing up that positive confidence and I get little feelings of appreciation waves.
We simplify the whole process. To where we are focusing on something in its simplest terms, the absolute simplest terms we can possibly think of. Which makes it then the easiest to get that positive confidence from. Which then brings us to a feeling of appreciation, which then opens the flow of love, which then, of course, improves every area of our life and also creates for us what we want. What dus that men? It meens that the events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys will be lind up so that I will end up with the resolt that I want,as in money flowing in more and more to the tun of 3.6 mil .It may take a year or it may take 3 years to foly come abut but that dus not mater.
Instead of sitting there meditating, trying to open the flow of love, to become megnetic to money we are making it a one-step program, which then creates the, events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys. That’s really what I’ve wanted the whole time is to make it one-step program that you can do in public enywhere without having to be embarrassed because no one can see what you are doing with your mind and your thoughts. All you do is open a magaseen a book or what ever and right the nubers 3.6 mil in small righting and you can creat the life you want without eny one knowing enything abut it.
This little picture that I have is very small, like I said, it fits in a palm of my hand. I’m going to take a picture of both sides of it and put it in this book so you can see it. You can make your own and siply pretend to yous it as a book marker, you can have this picture anywhere. Literally, you can open a magazine sitting in a restaurant lay that picture right in the magazine, and stare at it, and do the having the exsperensing of having 3.6 mil in the bank, and nobody would even know.
Regardless, it can be done in such a way, that you can avoid all heckling, you know how people resist you and make fun of you when you try to make changes in your life. So you can do it and it will be without any interference. Matter of fact, doing it this way, youl start geting positive responses from people.
If I have any resistance to that amount of money, I will get an amount of money coming in that I do not have resistance for. So if you are making lets say 1,000 dollars a month, and you start working on 3.6 million, but you have resistance for it, things will still improve and open up. Each day a better feeling, more confidence is coming with it and an opening and allowing to receive. As the allowing opens up, more money can flow in.
So all of a sudden or slowly you might notice some extra money coming from various places. This month you might make 11 hundred dollars. Next month more money will trickle in, another job gets offered and you might get 18 hundred a month or something like that. It just begins to increase. 6 months may go by and maybe you haven’t got the 3.6 million yet, doesn’t really matter, but you might be at income of 2,000 or 3,000 dollars. Your life will change in uther ways olsow! Money may not be the fors thing to show up. Uther things you have bin wanting may show up forst. This proses opens all the doors. How it oll unfoleds will be diferent for evry one.
That is a magical part. This is what I really like the most. My income, has increased a small amunt but what I really enjoyed, is my money has gone much further than it used to. This is a non-tangible thing that you can’t even prove or put your finger on it but you will notice it and you’ll see it. Because even with certain amount of money you are getting way more things and it’s just going forder achieving more!
It’s like the money itself has expanded! Like I said, there is no proof, you can’t point at it, you can’t do anything, but see that it’s hapening. Many people have come across this experience I have had reports saying “OK, this may sound strange, At this point money has not increased yet, but for some reason it’s going further I’m getting more and spending less.” “Am I crazy, or is this possible?” They asked!
I have to write back and say “Yes, this is very possible, other people are having this experience too.” Because the Universe is very elastic and expands to give us what we want. It will do whatever possible, whatever area we are allowing it at that time.
See, if we want something and are not allowing it by resisting it then it can’t give it to us. But it will find an area anywhere, where we don’t have the resistance and, surprisingly enough, expanding what money can do for us is where we have virtually no resistance and you know why? Because no one thinks abut it. So if you don’t even think it, then you can’t have any resistance for it, and so it can very easily happen.
As en exsaple you mite want something that costs more then you have but an opertunaty showes up where you get this thing at a redust price where you can aford it. It meens that the events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys where lind up so that I could afor the idom with the money I had. It is the same as reseving the money. It just may mean that I still had to mutch resistens to reseving the money so the unavores fund a posabilaty where there was no resistens.
As I contiyour practusing exspereansing the 3.6 mil slowly the resisten will melt avay and the money will start to flow in.
OK, so I’m looking at it now,
Focusing on the confidence. It feels very confident I have it. Just moving my body a little bit, almost like adjusting it to having it. Straightening out my spine a little bit, because I’m sitting right now. Sitting a little taller, feeling richer, feeling positive, confident. Thinking and feeling that I can go out today and buy myself and Roberta a good lunch. I have the money the confidence to take my friends to dinner. I looked up for a minute and I see a boat, I say to my self I could have that today, if I wanted it. Confident that I can have anything that I want. My breath is a little deeper, calmer. Having this money, there is a certain amount of calmness in me. Any tension is leeving, Yeah, just a certain calmness. Appreciation, a wave of appreciation. A little wave of “how beautiful the world is especially when you are on the abundance side!”
A good feeling that I’m actually improving the world with my abundance: as I increase my abundance, the world increases It’s abundance, because I’m going to spend it. So as everybody’s abundance increases, everybody is focusing on positive feelings about abundance, the world improves. The world improves, because im thinking of joy, sharing, and having.
We don’t stop ever, we ceep on gooing no mater what, no mater happens. Some days its going to be esy and uther days it will be hard so what! I want to be the derector of what I will exspereans in my life and Im willing to do the work to lowern it. As Im lowerning it my life will get beter and beter.
This morning I was playing with the creating of the 3.6 million and I couldn’t really focus very well. It’s just wasn’t quite there so I would drift off thinking about something else and I would have to catch myself and re-focus. It’s one of those mornings where I just felt a little un-focused. It was my own doing because, when I get up in the morning the first thing is, I take Roody for his walk so he can go to the bathroom, and then come and make my cappuccino, and then basically go right to it. But I sort of went to the computer first and I started clicking around and doing this and that. Then I find that I start the day with thoughts about the whole day and what I want to do and then you start thinking about all of that.
I find if I get to exspereansing my 3.6 mil first thing before my mind gets any chance to drifting to the day, it’s a lot easier.
Nevertheless, I stayed with it and I kept staying with it till I got a good feeling. Because the thing is, just thinking about it doesn’t do any good. I have to stay with it until I get a least a positive feeling, like that sensation of appreciation for it. Because that’s when I know the opertunatys will be created and brought to me.
So, if I stop before that, then nothing has really happened and all I’ve done is focused on it, which in the end result may help some, but it doesn’t really create it.
This feeling of welth is what is really important. I had to tell my mind what is really important for us, right now at this moment it is our 3.6 million dollars and just feeling the total sensation, the confidence, the joy and appreciation of having it.
Once I told my mind that, explained to it, the rest didn’t really matter, it helpt me focus.
I have to put it on the highest priority, above every thing else other than emergencys. So if I put it on that highest priority list it becomes the most important thing to me and if I put it at the very first thing in the morning, well then it is the easiest also to keep it at the most important thing.
Later that day we wanted to stop somewhere and have good tasting meal. We tryd to think of where can we go and eat because we don’t like fast food. There’s nothing wors than going to a restaurant and it doesn’t taste good.
I noticed that there was a restaurant in an old biulding. So we decided, what the heck, we’ll go try it and as we walked in the door it was really nice. Nice floors, nice walls, leather couches and we thought, “This is a nice little classy place.” It was really pretty because it had coloured table cloths and very nice booths, soft and comfy. Everything was super clean. A little bit upper end restaurant. Anyway, the waiter comes and says something about the way the food’s being served and I was sort of only half listening as is my usual, and Roberta had this look on her face. I said, “Yeah, OK to the waiter”
So the waiter goes away and Roberta says, “Did you look at the price?’ I anserd, “No, why? What’s the big deal?” I looked at the price and it’s like, “Holy cow!”
The price was quite high. I said, while we’re here, you know, we have talked about this. We talked about what it would be like if we were millionaires, and how we would eat, and what choices we would make that would be different from the ones we make now. We always talk about going to really nice restaurants where people are really careful with food and they really care about how the food is produced, and how clean things are.
So, here we are.
Anyway, then we started laughing about it because of the kind of coincidence between all this and I looked and figured you know the food started coming in small little quantities, really tasty and it’s been put in a nice artistic way on the plate. Looking at it makes you feel good. The place is quite nice. The atmosphere is nice. The floor is clean, the walls are clean. Everything is nicely done. There are beautiful curtains, there’s the nice windows. It’s just a very pleasant environment to be in. So I just turned to her and said, “You know, I could get used to being a millionaire.” We started to laughing, because this is what we could do instead of doing what we do when we go to eat. We can eat in places like this and it is much more pleasurable.
To be honest, the way the food was coming in little portions. I wasn’t used to it. Roberta, understood the way this works. I didn’t understand it. She was laughing at me a little bit.
Anyway, we were having fun with it. We really enjoyed it instead of getting into How much is this going to cost. I actually felt good about it and I felt like they deserved the money for the meal because of all this effort they are putting into it. They deserve the extra that they are getting.
Now at the very end the bill came and it’s like, “Holy cow!” It’s a big chunk and I thought “Wow!” But anyway, it didn’t feel bad. It didn’t feel negative. I didn’t feel like the money was wasted. We didn’t feel like we spent too much. You know it was like, I was totally comfortable with it, which is a whole new change.
I’ve had a lot of issues in the past with money, normally spending this money on the restaurant would have made me feel bad, like there would have been something in me that would have said, “Hey, this money could help some people who are starving.” And so forth. I’ve come to realise, “Yeah, that’s true, but the more I appreciate myself, the better I make my life, the more abundance I allow myself to have and thereby spending that abundance, the more the entire world benefits.” Because everybody benefits. The guy who owns this restaurant who has an idea of doing very nice things says, “Well it costs money to do it this this way, so I need people who have allowed themselves the abundance to be able to come here pay for this, so that they can have this.” But it lifts our society up in totality. It also gives people jobs where they make more money, because the meal costs more, so the waiter gets a bigger tip and they make more money. They in turn can go out and spend more money on the new car and whatever else, which means that the car salesman makes more money. It just goes through a whole full circle of everybody’s income and abundance actually increasing.
This is what I believe, each time someone out there allows, allows their income to increase and thereby going out and spreading that income, it benefits everyone. The opposite is true, every time someone holds it back and says, I can’t spend it for this, I don’t have the income. That money stops flowing, right there and then.
So in a sense, the richer we all are, the more it flows out and also if I don’t allow the inflow, how can I allow the outflow? If there’s not an inflow, there can’t be an outflow. So if there’s no inflow, I can’t give anything either. I mean, if I don’t have money coming in, more than I need, I have nothing really to give. I can’t give that energy out.
The more I allow myself to open it up, allow that flow in, allow myself to enjoy what that money brought, I know that money now continues to flow. So that money that I allowed myself to receive with great joy, I spent it with great joy, it brought us great joy. We had this wonderful meal that I can still taste now. I mean it still feels good. It’s like I really received something. Ahm, and it’s just, I feel that that money is filled with Love and is still flowing out and is reaching other people. Every time a penny goes to someone a little bit of that energy, that love that it was created with, reaches them also.
See, money is just energy. On the way to aur boat we stopped at a gas station and Roberta was in the car and I was coming out of the gas station and walked to car I could see her in the car laughing as and I get back in I asked “What are you laughing about? Do I look Goofy?”
She says, “No, not at all! You look wealthy.”
I thought that was kind of interesting. She said, “Yeah, you look like a rich boy. That was why I was laughing.”
These little things are signals that what I’m doing, I’m on the right track. The signal of my 3.6 million’s been received. What that is telling me is im opening to receiving and the coincidences and all the events are all falling into place. That means I’m in a receiving mode and it’s coming. I’m starting to radiate of wealth, I’m starting to look wealthy. Im starting to feel welthy.
Everything is beginning to fall into place. That’s the signals we’re looking for.
You know on a day to day basis, there’s probably ten more that I’ve missed and haven’t paid attention to.
These are small items. But sometimes they are part of the bigger picture.
The majority of people and myself have some resistance to money. It’s just a big thing in our society, almost everywhere in the world. But when you take something that you have big resistance for and work with it and reduce the resistance, it’s a door that opens. When that door opens, many other little things that we’ve asked for begin to flow in. They were held back by resistance we had for bigger things.
It’s like a door that is kind of closed to abundance. Our association with money is actually the association with abundance.
So a lot of times, when you open big gates, then many little things we’ve asked for begin flooding in. They’ve been waiting to be allowed in.
Trying to think back now what else did I receive? Come to think of it, There’s meny things that have been trinkling in.
I don’t think we need to recognize all of the little things that come, although it does help, because it does help to build the confidence in the creating. See the trick is not to wait for something. When I’m noticing that it is NOT there it will create it as NOT there.
We have the ability to create and un-create. If we were rich and we wanted to be poor we could create that, same as we can create the wealth. Exactly the same way.
The flow of abundance is a natural thing. What we’ve done is create a lack of abundance. We’ve actually created that for ourselves. Because the natural flow, totally unrestricted flow, would be abundance, would be everything we ask for coming, flowing in one at a time. We actually want things to flow in one at a time. That’s why we start creating. We let go of it, Then we move on to something else. We let go of that, We move to something else. Then comes a period where the first thing starts showing up. Then the next thing starts showing up and then the next thing and pretty soon we are in a total flow where we’re creating one thing and another thing is showing up, one thing and then another thing is showing up, one thing and another thing is showing up,
So we don’t concern ourselves so much any more when it’s showing up because we come to a beleve that it’s showing up in an appropriate time when it really gives us the most pleasure and it’s most convenient.
Evry 3 day spend some time apresheating evry thing you have so mutch so that you feel it, you must feel it thinking is only the proses to get to the feeling of apresheating witch opens the alowing to reseve the things we want.
What to Beleving
I was talking about those little coincidences that start happening when you begin creating and start removing the resistance to receiving.
Roberta stopped in at the doctors and while I waited I ran across to an electronic shop. Now before I was looking for an expansion unit for... (anyway, something for my computer, I can’t remember what it is called), and I couldn’t really find what I wanted. I’m just looking around in the store and on my way out there is a table with surplus stuff, stuff to get rid of. Lo and behold, whats sitting there? The very item that I was looking for!
Now, before I forced myself to try to find this item, and I tried all kinds of different items that are supposed to do the job but they didn’t. It took hours and hours and work of picking them up at the store, taking them home, trying them out, bringing them back… Instead of just seeing what I wanted in my mind’s eye, imagining what it is that I want it to do and pretending I have it by apresheating what it dus for me and by that leting all the events, circumstances, coincidences, timing, people, ideas and opportunities line up so that I will end up with the result that I want. Then just letting it go for a bit, just letting it go and alowing it to hapen. Because today I would have found it right there. Sitting there at half the price.
Oh before I forget... there’s something else that I thought of its kind of interesting. I just happened to be flipping around web-pages this morning after I did my recording and had another cappuccino. I was looking for something else and I came across this web-page of a guy whose philosophy is that you cannot send out love or radiate love or any energy because it re-interacts with whoever you are sending it and then turns into the reverse polarity and gets fired back at you in a defensive manner. I thought that was kind of interesting. Not that I disagree with him, nor that I agree with him, because I don’t agree with him.
You see, the thing is… I thought about it and I said: “Yeah, he could be correct about that. In certain instances that sort of thing could happen.”
So the main thing to remeber is that “everything is really right, and every thing is really wrong” if you want to believe in something or he wants to believe in that he will find evidence for it. If he believes in it first, then the Universe locks on to his confidence, and will create it for him. He will find evidence for that purpose. He will put that evidence in front of you and you will say: “Wow, amazing!”
But if you believe the opposite and say “sending out Love creats buteful things for evry one.” You have the confidence in what you beleve, the Universe will unfold it to you in the way you perceive it because that’s the way this Universe is designed. If you were to send him Love, then, still the Universe would show the result of that to you, regardless of what his opinion is. He wouldn’t even probably notice it.
Now, if he goes the other way around and totally beleves that it is harmful then it makes creating for him, for this particular person, more difficult, slower, more complicated and not as powerful. Evry one has the choice to believe what thay want and thay should do so. I wouldn’t spend a split second trying to change enyones mind at all, or show them anything different. I just allow him to be.
“The evidence proves it to me.” Because I believe, and so the evidence is there simple as that. You choose to believe. You choose to build confidence in whatever you want to experience. Therefore some things are worth believing in.
So again, “What’s really worth believing in?” It is a matter of choice, isn’t it? It’s nice when we have that choice. It’s nice, I feel really good because I could allow evry one to have a belief, and it dus not effect me at all. I’m glad that he’s got a web-site and is doing whatever he wants, and that he is free to do that.
Who am I to say who is really right or wrong? The only thing that I should say “Whether it is right or wrong?” is what’s right or wrong for me. What I want to experience, how I want to experience my life.
Its all in what we want to beleve and in how we chuse to exspereans all the things that happen to us.
I don’t have a problem with having an illness. It’s how I experience that illness. That’s a funny thing to say but every once in a while I get a little bit ill. It doesn’t happen very often. It’s like the flu, common cold , I just shut it down and say “The heck with the world”. I just go and sleep and rest and relax, and don’t do anything. Actually it ends up to be a good experience for me because it’s one of the few times I quit and just shut down. Most of the time I just keep going and going and going. So all in all, it’s a good experience.
I don’t mind the experience of being ill. I wouldn’t care if the doc came and said “Jesus, you’ve got the worst disease we’ve ever seen. You got two weeks.”
I would say, “Wow. I have two weeks from your experience and from what you want to experience and from how you perceive this. But I don’t agree with you as far as my experience and how I’m going to experience this disease. I’ll tell you what, how does it look right now that I’m experiencing it? Oh, you are saying I hardly even know it’s there? Exactly! So why don’t we just continue on that way. Let it be it and me be me.” Right? The disease doesn’t necessarily have to cause harm. That’s a misconception. Or is it a misconception? Or is it a conception that’s been accepted?
Live and let live unaffected by what eny one els chusess to beleve.
Live and let live in a joyous way, happy way, whatever.
The whole thing seems to click for me. Would be nice if we had a little phrase for that.
Anyway, I just go with the flow. What works, works. Why question it? Why not just let it work and let it be? Unless you want to improve something, I guess, then we can question it. Showed we question what we have come to beleve. The quegen would be dus this what I belev inphwer me or not?
What we beleve to be true is what it showen to us as the truth and that gives us even more reson to beleve it.
The second I wak up I start bring abut a feeling of being velthy I do it mostly by repeting
“We olways have an abundance of money and
we oconstantly reseve en abundans of money
Im feeling it.”
Need a new Frige?
Here’s a perfect example of how I follow my instinct or that inner guidance, or at least I try to as best as I can and sometimes it doesn’t seem to work out. Like this morning I was going to Gabrielo from the Nanaimo and you have to go there by ferry which takes about half an hour and there is the therapist who does the sacral cranial work that I’ve been going to once a week. It seems to be helping for me to open up more and remove resistance and so forth, and I overworked my body over the last six, eight months and there was just too much stress built up in it . That’s the way I am. I bury everything. I don’t let it really flow out very well. So anyway, I had the thought that I should make it back to the ferry, because normally I’m in there until after nine o’clock and the ferry leaves at nine. So I just had this feeling I should get on the nine o’clock ferry for some reason. I don’t know why. But I didn’t question it. I just went in and just mentioned to her that maybe I could be back early enough for the ferry, so she made sure that I left early enough, but when I got to the ferry the line-up is so big that I couldn’t get onto the ferry anyway, so now I’m sitting in the line-up wondering what the point of this was. When you follow your instinct, your guidance, sometimes, things don’t seem to work out. So it could have been just a stray thought, an idea, that I didn’t really need to act on.
Sometimes it’s really hard to tell whether you just have an idea, because now that I think about it, I did want to go back earlier, because I’m a little tired today and I wanted to go have a nap. If I go back on the nine o’clock ferry then I’ll be home by ten I can nap till noon. Now it’s going to be a little longer.
Now im siting hear thinking I maid a mistake folowing my iner gidens.
Evanshaly I did get on a fary and 2 days later I fund out that the fary brock down after and that would have ment I would have bin there all day had I not folowed my iner feeling. See some times we don’t find out abut thes things and we go on beleving that we mayd a mistake.
Its importend to beleve something we want to beleve with out needing proof. If I contyour to beleve that I make mistakes then at some point it will be created that way for me and that will become my realety.
The point is I should just beleve what I want to beleve and at a sorten point it will become my exspereans.
Have you ever notised that when some one totally strongly beleves in something it becomes there life exspereans.
Anyway will I’m sitting at the ferry I go through magazines I ceep in my car and if there’s a picture of something that I want to experience, let’s say there’s a motorcycle or car or a boat or a windsurfer or people at a restaurant eating good food, or something like that a picture that represents something I want to experience or some place I wan to live, something I want to see, some place I want to visit. I will take that picture, cut it out and put it in a little scrapbook. Lots of times I will go through the scrapbook and I just place myself in those places as I’m looking at the picture, I bring up the feeling of appreciation and I basically just put myself there.
I look at the motorcycle picture and I just kind of in my ears hear the roar of the engine feel the leather seat and the steering bars in my hands and how shiny the paint is. How polished it is, how it sparkles in the sunlight, the feel of the bike and sitting on it and then I get a feeling of appreciation. I do it until I have that feeling of appreciation. I hold that for as long as it feels good. So it actually becomes the picture book of my life what I want to experience. I am exsperensing it. Its like I have it.
Some times I try too hard and this is not about trying or how hard we try. This is about the experience of it and how much fun we can make it. How naturally we can begin to create and begin to bring it into, a natural thing we do every day. So that it becomes so normal that, as we look at something that we desire, we automatically perceive it as, It’s there, already, in our lives. We feel appreciation of having it and thereby setting the creating of it into motion.
I match the vibration to it and the universe begins the process of bringing it to me and somewhere down the road, all of a sudden it shows up. So it’s like it’s Christmas all the time. Because there’s always something coming.
You know, I could go for anything. I mean you could be sitting at a red light and se a group of people at the side of the road all laughing and joking and you can se that they are a very close knit group, friends, and right away you say, “That’s a wonderful thing.” Instead of wishing you had, you automatically put it in your life by saying, “I have that. It’s so wonderful to have that.” You do all the sequence that it takes in that period of time to actually bring yourself up to appreciating that you have that. The actual feeling of it. So that you can actually hold that feeling for a minute, two minutes, three minutes and then just let go. Which means, now, it is already in the framework of being created. Now, what will happen then is, over time you’ll see it again, somewhere else. A similar thing which will bring you back to the same thoughts again and so automatically you do it again and you’re about to see it again and again and again. Each time you do that you bring up the feeling of appreciation and so the creating process is in place and all of a sudden one day you actually have it.
I can think of a very simple example. I wanted a piece of rope a certain length. I had thought about it and I had thought about it right after I had practised creating and appreciation, so I was still in that heightened state. Later that day, I stopped at a store, I walked into the store, I walked over to the rope section and the guy who is working in there had just cut a piece of rope off for another gentleman and the gentleman said, “Oh no, that’s not the right rope. It’s this one I want.” And so the guy is holding this rope that he has cut off, wrapped up, already put a price on it, and I asked, “How many feet have you got?” It was exactly what I wanted and I said, “Well, I’ll take it.” He marked down a fifteen percent discount on it and off I went. I didn’t have to wait. I didn’t have to look for anyone. I just went to the till, walked back out. I Said to the unavores, “You know, next time, just have it fall out of the sky. I’ll roll my window down and let it drop right into the car. Of course I’m joking, but that’s the kind of thing that can happen if we keep going with it. More and more of it will show up.
If doesn’t really show up then generally it has to do with resistance and there are certain things that we’ve tried to create that just don’t quite fall into place. One of these is a really funny hilarious story and I still laugh about it to this day. When Roberta and I forst got together I had a small older fridge. I didn’t need a bigger fridge because we don’t keep much in it, mostly milk and salad dressing you know, what else, who knows, anyway. She had a big thing about having a nice newer fridge, frost free and a nice freezer on it where you can actually put a fair bit into it. Anyway, so the point is, I said, “Why, you know. Create it. Well it was her very first practice thing of creating. So a few weeks later I get up very early in the morning, it was probably before six o’clock, and I’m walking into the kitchen to make my cappuccino and out of the corner of my eye I see something in the front yard. At that time we had a house with a very long drive way and then it circled through and then back out. It was a very private place. Nobody ever drove down the road. But something was laying right in the middle of that circled in by the driveway. I walked outside and lookt and here it is an old, beat up, crappy, junkiest looking fridge I’ve ever seen. What somebody did, they loaded this piece of junk, dirty, ugly, whatever onto a truck and instead of taking it to a dump they probably thought that the road that led to our house was a dead end road and they could just dump it, so they drove down the road, saw our house and decided to dump it anyway. Either way, there it is, laying there, the ugliest thing of a fridge I’ve ever seen. I marched right into the bedroom woke Roberta up and said, “Your fridge is here. You should see it, It’s really something.” And her eyes just lit up and she got all excited, there’s sparkles in her eyes, jumped out of bed ran outside and said, “What the hell is that?” Anyway, it was the funniest thing. It was just hilarious. So I said to her, “You need to do a little bit more practising. “ anyway, since then we’ve had really big issues with fridges. We always end up with a fridge and it works but it’s never even close to what she wants. It’s always kind of small, and they make noises and they’re just missing something. It just hasn’t quite kicked in. You wonder what is going on, I mean it’s pretty clear to understand what she wants and yet it doesn’t unfold.
So there’s a perfect example of resisting to receiving. The universe is. It will not create a new fridge, that’s not the signal it was given. If you want a new fridge it has to be a very clear feeling of appreciation of a new a new fridge how well it runs and how reliable it is. No matwer what you have at the moment.
Feel and exspereans what you want not what you have.
If I find my self thinking thoughts of things I do not like then I repet to my self this.
“We have over 3 milion dolars in the bank
Im feeling it exsperensing it I like it.”
I came back from the physiotherapy this morning, did a little recording in a car on a ferry, and as soon, as I got home, I crashed. I mean, I went downstairs, into the bed I was out like a light, instantly. I was totally toasted.
Somewhere in there I had a pretty weird dream. I was heading towards this big old castle-like house. Looked like it was not occupied anymore, but something in there scared the hell out of everybody, there was a secret in there, some kind of a secret or treasure or something and there is a monster in there.
Secrets and treasures, monsters well, how can you resist? I went in, I’m looking everywhere, and you can hear this monster coming down the hall I could hear the way he is breathing and crawling so I keep moving and keep looking for the treasure. Anvenshaly I did find a secret hallway, I could see it led to two rooms one room straight at the end of the hollway and one room off to the right. As I’m looking down this hallway im thinking to my self “These roomes are booby-trapped!” So I’m looking around and two cats come out of the forst room. Sort of something like two cats, I guess, I could say something else, but not shure.
Anyway, they sort of say “You can go down there.” I sed to my self “Hm, I don’t think so.” I just stood in the crossway of the two hallways and waited for the monster. I knew that as soon as the monster saw the actual hiden hallway, he would definitely want to head down there and not bother with me. Somewhere along the line, I’m getting feeling that the monster was actually, maybe working for me, with me or something like that.
Anyway, the monster does go down that hallway. I don’t know what the monster looks like, I couldn’t really tell, other than, possibly, another cat. Weird, I don’t even like cats. So, he goes down the hallway and the two cats come with the monster telling him to go to the door to the right, and I think the monster kind of sent a questionable signal to me and I sayd “Yeah, go in a right one.” I figured it better deal with whatever booby-trappe there is first. I was shure the room on the side was booby-trapped and the cats where in on it.
So the two cats go in there with the monster, they close the door. For some reason I can kind of see inside that room, and the cats thought they gonna rip this little monster to shreds, except all of a sudden now the monster is about 15 feet tall. And you see these cats just kinda melting into the corner. Not melting, but, you know shivering their little asses right into the corner, and they’ve given in.
So I left. I new the monster would go in where the secret treasure is hidden. Anyway, I left. For some reason I don’t know if I had any interest or not. To be quite honest, I could have and mabe I should have went down that hallway into that doorway, but I didn’t I think because because of fear.
You know how fear is. Sometimes fear hides from ourselves so we have enormous fear of something and we don’t know we have it. We have so much fear that we make other excuses and say “Oh, I’m not interested in that.” When in fact it’s just we have a fear for it. So I’m thinking that’s what it was.
Anyway, next thing I know, I’m sitting on this nice long table and who is in front of me across that table, but Danny! And guess who is beside me? Neena! Denny wouldn’t say a word to me. I tried to joke with him, but he is just looking at me, like at a most mean look I don’t know if it’s mean, disappointed, possibly a little disgusted with me. Very disappointed with me.
Neena she was more open towards the whole thing. There are a few words said back and forth, I can’t remember what it was I turned back towards where Denny was, but he was now gone there is just me and Neena, and some kind of a monster or a giant behind her. Not somebody all that nice, almost somebody that was trying to get at me but it couldn’t, she was blocking the way.
Anyway, that’s about it the end of the dream. So I got up and it’s now after 1:30 I’ve been asleep since 10 o’clock in morning all the way till 1:30, and I’m groggy as hell right now. I just jumped in the boat, took Roody over to the island, so he could go to the bathroom, because he was sitting there waiting for his bathroom trip. { Neea and Dany are Pepole from the book the mesenger.}
I feel I’m just wiped out, I can hardly tell where I am. It feels like I’m floating across the ground, I almost fell out of the boat. I’m sure the cold water would have woken me up. But I’ve been here now for 20 minutes, we’ve been walking slowly but I still im right out of it.
Anyway, I just hopping the shit from the past isn’t going to start again. Because I’ve really had about enough, you know? That stuff in the past I don’t need any more, my life has been fairly quiet, and just going along nicely. I like the idea of creating the things I want to play with, and just finish off my life that way. I’m tired of the battles, and I’m tired of all the other stuff. You know, there comes a time when enough is enough.
To be honest, I’ve slammed door shut, nice and sealed, put a glue in all the little holes, all glued up I think this physiotherapy is opening those doorways again, because today, when she was doing her work, she says: “Hey, there is a major block here!” I’m thinking to myself: “Some doors are better left closed.” But I got a feeling that that’s exactly what she worked on.
I know that there was something behind that door that was bloking me. Probly something im afrad of or afraid to face.
Sooner or later I will need to come to tormes with the fact that im the only one standing in my path to what I want.
To day I faled. I know that but its OK because I will have more opertunatys to grow, it will now take more time for me to reseve the money. Im a little disapointed in myself. I olsow relise I need more time. Beeting my self up is not going to help.
See I have olsow come to beleve that when it comes to creating im very good at it but im slow at it. Nothing wrong with that. Some things im fast at and some things im just slow at. Best of all im leowrning to like my self even thow im scard to get the things I want. Ofcores you don’t have that problem do you?
So I’m feeling a little down, a little depressed. Now I know if I stay in this state, the longer I stay in it I’ve closed the doors of what I want and the things that I want. While I’m in this state the reseving is closed or slowed down. I’m not in a receiving state. So no matter what I asked for, sent the energy out to create it, to bring it here. At this time it’s basically stopped where it is.
So I know, I need let go and move on, because all in all, what I want to create is much nicer and much more beautiful than this thing that im feeling now.
I need to let go. Let go of the disappointment, let go of that feeling, see the positiveness in it, switch back to positive feelings, because that’s where everything kinda happens and clicks. That’s where the magic happens. That’s where everything that I ask for can flow in. All the stuff that I’ve been witnessing coming in. Sometimes that’s the thing, you know? Sometimes we get these moments where something else happens and it looks like in the long run a negativity thing, but you don’t know. I don’t know what the long-term game of “what I am creating” I know in the past things have happened that looked like a disappointment while I was creating but at the end turned out a positive thing, which was necessary to make the thing I was asking for happen.
So certain things have to change and we have to allow them to change, I think. Same as we have to have to overcome any fears that we have of what that change will bring. Everything we ask for will bring in some change, always.
You know, I think to never feel disappointment, never feel the twinge of anger, to never feel upset, or anything like that I don’t think that’s realistic. I think, in a long run, no matter how happy you are, you get those moments where you are going to feel that uther stuf. I don’t think they need to stay, those moments, we can hang on to them, keep them going, or we can just simple let go of them and move on. I think, that’s the biggest thing to learn to let go. When we hang on stuff too much, that hanging is also resistance, because grabbing on to something is like a fear of loosing it. So the more we grab on to it, it’s fear of loosing it, fear of it going away and something better not coming to replace it.
I don’t know. Always so much thinking, always so much complications… Working this out, working that out… Always questioning everything?
See, it would be better, if I was a little more accepting. Because that would mean I would hear what I’ve heard and go “OK, oh yah, fine. Drop it.” And move on. So it would virtually have no effect on me whatsoever. I would stay right at creating what I want. Without a hiccup, which means the stuff that I’ve been creating can continue to travel towards me uninterrupted. That means I have just to accept the surroundings. But with my feelings stay focused on what I want.
So if I was trying to create a car, a brand-new car. I am creating the experience of owning a brand-new car. In a mean time, let’s say, my car breaks down. Rather than letting that upset the situation, you just accept it, let it go, continue on with feeling what it feels like to own that new car. Allow it to be just whatever it is instead of judging the situation and saying “Oh, see? I must be not creating right. And now I’ve created worse problems and so on, and so forth.” So rather than question it, just allow it.
So I’m goning to go now and switch the laundry over and then I’m starting to think about the next thing i would like to creat. It’s been a long time since I had a brand-spanking-new car. You know, you get that new car smell and everything! I haven’t had one of those in ages! I think it would be fun to create a brand new one, right off the lot. Paid for, you know, no mortgage payments just own it outright.
“What kind of car?” Small one, big one, luxurious one, sports car? I’m starting to look around and trying to look at different pictures and see what I want. The other day I was driving past a car lot, and I drove a little slower and took a look-see what kind of cars they have out now. Every time I watch movies, I look at the cars. So that’s how I started the process. I keep going till I find something that looks good, that would be fun. I mean, not the car that I’ll drive for the next 20 years, but probably for a while, anyway, till I change my mind. So I just need to find what really attracts me now. Something that would fit, perhaps, with my character you know, like a hat. A hat is something that has to suit your mood, and I thingk a car is much like that. So Im goning to find a car that fits my mood, my behavior right now, the way I want to be, feel. I can’t quite make up my mind yet. But I’ll work it out.
Really what I am trying to do is get a feeling of it. A feeling of having it, how it feels to drive it, and again the confidence and the appreciation of having it. So that the energy, the love flows to create it exactly the same way I’m doing the 3.6 million, I’ll do the car.
See I have let go of the thing that was bothering me by thinking of something I want to think abut. With out my atenshen the uther thing looses its power and melts avay.
See, right now I’m feeling really good, I’m feeling really excited. I noticed that when I’m creating my 3.6 million, and I really get the feel of appreciation, and I hang on to it, allowing it, keeping it going, the little waves subsides and increases. It really makes you feel good. I mean, when you really do it and it really clicks, it energizes you. It’s like your whole body just energizes and it comes to life. Because having the 3.6 million in a bank is very exiting. It feels very good, it’s very confident. When I actually bring that feeling up, and actually feel it, well, then it’s virtually there. It’s like it’s there! I mean, to me at this moment, it is there. You’d have to work at it to convincing me that it is not, when I have all the feelings and emotions of it being there, all the good feelings of it. It seems like the more I work with this, the stronger those feelings actually get, and the more convincing they become and so the more confident I become that it’s there. It creates a chain reaction, that builds on itself.
I think the important thing is just to stick with this now, stick with those 3.6 million and just keep going because when you believe that it is possible, the Universe creates the possibility for you, and it becomes possible, because the events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys are lind up for it to hapen. It’s all very important. More and more im replasing thoughts of lack with thoughts of abundance. Olsow im becoming more focused. I also noticed that the game batelfeeld 1942 takes all my focus, all my concentration in an enormous way to the absolute max. I mean, you would have to train for a very long time to become that focused. The game in itself teaches this focus on its own, very quickly. I noticed, once I started playing those games, my actual ability to focus on what I want to create and experience (and opening my heart and flowing love) has increased from playing the game.
See, that’s amazing part! To me, anyway. That the very thing some people are afraid of (and think that it takes too much people’s time and wastes their time) actually trains them in a sense for many positive aspects. Also if something is bothering me and I just cannot seem to let it go the game halps for me to chang my focuse because if I don’t let it go, it won’t let it go of me it would not leave my life unless I let it go. So let’s say, there is a neighbor who is a real jackass. I can’t get him out of my life, I can’t get him out of my experience, that negative side of him until I can let go of it totally. The way to let go is to put my focus somewhere else. I can’t erase it out of my mind, I have to put my focus somewhere else. Sometimes, I find that a little difficult and that’s where playing the game works.
Because the game sucks up my total focus into the game. While I’m totally focused in there, there is no energy going at all to that negative situation that I don’t want. I get out of the game still having that strong focus, and I go right to my 3.6 mil will I’m playing the game, getting my focus and concentration back in line. The game almost forces that in a very gentle way. Then I immediately, when I come out of the game, I use that same focus on what I want to create in my life.
By bringing up that feeling of appreciation for what I want and the more I keep that, the more the other situation would just shrink away into nothing. Because unless I support it with my energy, it cannot continue to exist. If it wants to exist, that person will have to find somewhere else to go, somewhere else, where his vibration matches him, and if he wants to battle, he will find someone who also wants to battle, or who does not necessarily want it, but has that focus. Or someone else who doesn’t want it, who hates it so much, he is thinking about it all the time because he hates it. He hates it because he is thinking about it all the time. And so it becomes stuck to him. What will happen is he will actually bring his boat and park it right beside the guy. Because that’s how the Universe works. Like attracts like.
So if you become “like something” by loving it, or by hating it, it will stick to you. So the best is to love what you like and forget the rest. Damn, I feel good today! I feel so good, I can hardly sit still!
To exspereans
To exspereans what
Life
Seet and souer
Sumtimes its to mutch
Sumtimes its not enuf
How derects your life
How derects how you feel
Creating a dehumidifier
Oirly in the evening we got a knock on the door, one of the things, that I had bin thinking about was a dehumidifier, a little tool, that takes the moisture out of the air. For a boat, I thought it would be a dandy thing. But they are about 400 bucks and I didn’t want to spend 400 dollars on a unit and then find out it doesn’t really work. So I was kinda holding off, but I was thinking about it a fu times after I had finished with the 3.6mill.
Anyway, there was a knock on the door, and sure enough here is one of the other fellows, who has one in his boat and he’s got himself a brand-new unit, and he asks if I would want the one he’s got? So I said “Sure, I’ll take it. More than happy!” I went down to his boat, grabbed it, we carried it out to my boat. The unit is like brand-new, you can’t even tell, it’s like it’s fresh out of the box, it’s just not the model that he wanted. So I got a brand-new 400 dollar dehumidifier basically for nothing. Oh, we will probably take them out for dinner or something, at least for that gift, but, again, there is the creating aspect.
I keep saying “The more you focus on one thing, and bring that feeling, and use that to open the receiving up. Everything else, all the little things start pouring in, because we are allowing ourselves to receive them.” I was excited about the dehumidifier, but I think I was more excited about receiving it that way. So it’s a perfect little unit, I tried it last night and amazing enough, it took over a gallon of water out of the air in less than 12 hours!
That’s basically one aspect of creating. I would call that “A creating without stipulating how something comes”. Basically just asking for it, making sure we stay in a phase of allowing and just letting it come in whatever way is the easiest and quickest. Simplest. Least amount of effort.
As we get better with creating, we can continue on and make everything more specific. Like maybe we want certain brand name.
Anyway, I started to think about all the things that are coming in and thinking that I’m probably missing quite a few things. And actually there is another larger item that I got earlier on, that I wasn’t even really paying attention to. See, it’s a funny thing, when you are doing this creating, you are focused on the thing that you want and so we tend to look for that, and we don’t notice all the other stuff that clicks in place for us.
Its a long stretch of coincidences that all fall into place like little jig-saw puzzles.
See, the thing is in this world, we have a basic rule in this game, just like the virtual games we play on the computers. There are certain guideline rules, and one of the guideline rule is that everything has to appear as it was either build or here already. We don’t play this game in a form of “visualizing and pooff there it is in front of us!” Here we don’t play that game, we don’t really want it that way that’s why we didn’t make it that way. So everything appears through some coincidences it will always show up like that.
When you are creating money, the money you have If you are doing it right feeling the abundance of money, the way we’ve been doing it what happens forst with money is it seems to go further. It’s like it expands, it’s stretches. So when something goes further than it would normally have done. It’s really like there’s more being created out of nothing. Because the events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys all come togethe to give you more and that’s wher it starts.
How do I think about a computer? I mean, whats the purpose of it, anyway? The purpose is for me to play my game. What’s that purpose? To have fun, because I really enjoy it. It’s a great past time, at the end of it I feel good. You know, I haven’t, in a sense, accomplished anything, but I don’t think, that’s the purpose. So how do I feel about all this? How do I feel about having a computer that can play this game? A coputer that is so fast that I can play eny game?
I’m not creating receiving of it, but having it. I’ll make sure I create the having. Bring up the appreciation of having it, right now. So all the feelings, everything. Line up my thoughts, and keep doing that until I get what I want. That’s the trick.
At eny given moment
The more the unavores revolves arund me
No mater what gos on
I can conshasly feel what I want to feel
Even if im pur
I can feel ritch
The unavors sees what I feel and will bring me more of what I feel
I think the more I’m practicing the feeling of the 3.6 million, the more my behavior changes Also im changing on the inside as I’m opening to receive and I’m allowing more things to flow into my life. I mean the energy’s changed in me so I’m open to receiving instead of being semi-closed. That is a big change and I think because it’s 3.6 million it’s a little different from when I’m creating smaller stuff like a boat.
Or stuff that’s lets say a closer in a financial affordable range. So when we take a big leap I think there’s more change, but by the same token, you know, it’s more growth. I think it’s also faster growth, so there can be moments where it can be, I think, uncomfortable. When we grow faste there are going to be growing pains. I could call these growing pains or creating pains, manifestation pains. Something like that, I suppose, adjustments. I was having thoughts of stoping and working on uther things. That is a sine of fear, fear of faling and so befor that happens I can chang to somting els then I would not feel im faling but that’s is exsactly what I would be doing. So to day I maid my self a promes that I would stay with this for a torm of 3 years and not stop no mater what comes or what happens. No I’fs abut it that’s that.
We don’t stop ever, we ceep on gooing no mater what
For ones I will not let my fear interfear
Evry day I will desid how I will feel
Evry day I will feel what I want to feel
I am so luky to know that I can derect what I feel
Attitude
I’ve noticed in my past experiences from creating, that change can also cause resistence because sometimes we resist chang, or we get scared, or we get too tired. I remember getting tired, and then, you know, sort of not feeling like creating and you sort of then, just sorta let go of it. Cause when you’re too tired to do it and just exhausted and of course when you’re tired you get to feeling down, or oh, this isn’t going to happen” Stuff like that. We want to keep the whole thing at a kind of a even pace that we can handle. Not overdo it because then we’re just fighting ourselves, we’re not really creating anymore. We’re just struggling against the resistence.
I noticed last night will watching a show that meny movies in a very large aspect are saying that it is better to be a working stiff and pay your taxes and just keep working.
This movey was actually sending the message that large amounts of money isn’t good for you. It makes you evil and makes people bad and it brings the worst out in people so it’s best that you just stay a working stiff and pay your taxes and stay down there in the poor section. Unbelieveable. I mean, I noticed it before but I sort of forgot about it and last night I really paid attention to it because I think, you know, the fact that I’m creating the 3.6 million I’m paying more attention to my thoghts and feelings. I don’t know if the movie people intentionally do that but they certainly do in a lot of movies.
A lot of people, if you say the word “money” they have fear of what it does to them. What it will do to their friends, their family. It’s like they think it’s going to destroy them and what destroys people is not money, it’s greed or, not even greed, it’s actually fear. Fear of not enough, fear of losing it, fear someone will take it. Stuff like that.
Nevertheless, it’s important I think to start looking at these things as we’re creating the 3.6 million because when we’re creating money, our body, our minds, our larger selves are sending us messages on what needs to be done and what needs to be taken care of in order to make this happen.
I went to the bank, I dropped off a small check. I had a totally different feeling, like I was, well, much much closer to what you’d feel like, the confidence you’d feel like if you had 3.6 million in that bank account. I was standing at the casher much, much more confident and from the teller I also got a different behavior, a more something, what she said was Mr. Joehl at the end. “Thank you for coming, Mr. Joehle. We’ll see you again.” Totally different behavior, one of more respect. The whole experience was a good experience, where normally going to the bank, it’s, “oh, I gotta put this bit of money in there…sigh..then I gotta pay tax on it..then I gotta buy this and spend it on the groceries and then-what’s left?” Well that’s sort of the attitude I’ve had in the past. I have to admit that. That’s been my attitude all along. That’s one of the reasons why my winnings never went into the bank. As a matter of fact I don’t even like to put my money into the bank, I guess because of that attitude. There’s a lot of change in my behavior, my thinking, my psychological attitude. All that’s a lot of work work. A lot of effort. My thoughts are more trained, more focused, that’s effort. So I was quite proud of myself, of that feeling I had when I was in there. All this work has changed my thoghts from a negative attitude, negative feelings to positive attitude, positive feelings and that takes a lot of work, a lot of effort.
So all in all I’m quite happy that im growing, I know this is the work of a miliner. Enjoying the changes that I’m going through. In some ways they’re more fun than the money itself. Not that the money won’t be fun, but I think I’m really beginning to appreciate just what creating something large can do for you in my life, nevermind the object itself. But appreciating what the creating itself can do for me. The changes that need to take place inside me and what all that does to my life, and about how it actually improves my life before the money’s even there. I’m really happy about that. Im becoming a porsen how can handel 3.6 mill and atract it into my life.
Some days I have the orge
To feel losy
To feel not happy
To feel sad
That’s ok
As long as im doing the desiding
Of what I will feel
How long I will feel it
Chapter 11
A while back I had a thought of creating this 3.6 million dollars. Someone mentioned in their ideal that not everyone in this country could have or create 3.6 million dollars. In other words, what he was saying was, that if everyone was doing it everyone couldn’t succeed in the creating of the 3.6 dollars and that’s incorrect, but I understand why he thinks that way.
At forst when you think abut the posabilaty of creating 3.6 mill your mind will try to, in a sense, tell you that that’s not logically possible even though it is. Now the thing is at that point you’d be fighting with your mind your own thoughts. You’d be struggling with your own beleves of is or is not possible. In a sense unless you know how and why it’s possible it would be difficult for you to logically convince yourself.
So at that time when that person mentioned this I said, “well it’s a wonderful conversation, a great argument, unfortunately I don’t want to have this conversation ‘because I found in the past that I would spend all my energy trying to show you how it is possible and, in a sense, trying to convince you and you’ve already made up your mind that it’s not possible, so you would be trying to convince me, in a sense, that it is not possible so I would be expending huge amounts of energy knocking up against something that I don’t agree with, and trying to convince you to have a different train of thought when, in fact, it’s very difficult to prove to you that it is possible. But it really doesn’t serve much purpose and, in a sense, it will actually hold me back.”
So I found that in the main basis of it, it’s better for me not at all to even think about it and just simply let the outher porsen be. I just see no reason why to engage something that would cause any resistance so I simply put that aside and I accept with my confidence and my believe that it is possible.
Again that’s where we come back to some things are worth believing because the believing in itself is the creating of it. I mean the believing is the creating of it. Having the confidence in it is, in a sense, the beginning of the creating of it and that’s exactly what we’re doing. We’re creating the confidence in it, creating the appreciation for it. We can create anything we want and everyone can have the 3.6 million or whatever it be, regardless. It is possible and I’ve chosen to accept that belief regardless of whatever other evidence someone else might come up with. The thing is we need to choose what we want to believe in, that serves us, what serves our purpose and thereby will end up being, like I said, being created anyway.
So we need to have confidence in it. That’s something each individual, I think, has to do for themselves.
Nuthing is more powerfull then beleving.
When I beleve it
The unavores beleves it
All that is creats it for me
But only for me
Untill I convins some one els
Then its created for them olsow
That’s whay we must make shur
That we beleve in thos things
That we want to beleve in
Chapter 12
Focusing on the having
I realized that in the past when I was creating I was doing it more in the form of perhaps trying to visualize having the money and so forth. Now the problem with that is looking at having it and looking at not having it, there’s such a fine line in between the two. In other words focusing on the having or focusing on the not having, it’s such a fine line that sometimes it’s difficult to tell which one we’re focusing on and the problem is by trying to visualize it you almost get more of a sense that it’s not there because trying to force the visualization, trying to see it and at the same time my conscious mind is, in a sense, reminding me that it’s not there.
It would be the same with trying to create a car because you’re sorta visualizing it there but, in a sense by that I would be noticing more that it’s not there. By visualizing it and pushing the visualization of it I’m really, in a sense, i noticing even more that it’s not there and noticing that it’s not there is focusing on the not-having.
So by doing the feeling thing, bringing it into a sense in the body of emotion, a feeling, an experience, because an experience is really physical, emotional. The visual part wouldn’t really be there, although when you do it through the feeling part I notice that you get a bit of a visual imagery very lightly there enyway I’ll be getting the feeling of it and then all of a sudden I’ll be getting an image of myself at the bank or something, where I’m feeling really good about the fact that I have it and it’s there in the bank and so forth, feeling very proud, confident and those kinds of feelings.
I can tell when I have the feeling of it because it feels good and it’s energizing, you know, when something feels really good it gives you energy and if something doesn’t feel good it drains your energy.
I know when I’m on the right track when it starts to feel really good and I’m feeling energized. Then little images come to my mind. Like one of them is a house, somewhere on the beach, tropical warm place.
I don’t try to hold that image, I just kinda let it be there, play with it a bit and just sorta let go of it, just feeling very content. If I see a picture in a magazine, I’ll use it more as a feeling thing, I flip through and I see a nice car and then I experience myself for a minute what it feels like to have that car, driving down the road, and sometimes I’ll even get the smell of that new car smell, the smell of leather and so forth in my nostrils. I just keep going, I flip through the magazine and it just becomes something to do on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Or even in the evening before going to bed a lot of times I’ll flip through a magazine and just bring myself to a few places of those things in a feeling sense. I don’t try very hard to imagine myself there although sometimes, you know, I’ll have a picture of, let’s say, a beach, sometimes I just imagine myself sitting there, my feet buried in the hot sand, watching the sun go down or something. I don’t try to do a very pure visualization of it, I just sort of let it hazily be there and I just, again, go for the feeling of it…ahhhhh….just the good feeling of being there, of not having to do anything but just that. Not having to answer phones, emails, write books, tile floors, whatever, go to the office. There’s nothing that I need to do other than just enjoy myself and I just bring myself to the feeling that I can stay there indefinitely.
Other people, I would assume would have other things that they want. Perhaps to own a corporation or be the president of a corporation, a vice president, to create things, to build things, be a construction guy and build high rises, houses, lots of different things.
You know, one of the things I love to do is construction. I like tiling. I could have a long time ago hired a bunch of people and just went out and got the jobs and, more or less, just oversee the jobs but I love doing it myself so much because I really enjoy it, that hands-on thing. But there’s times when it gets too much and then I prefer not to do it for a while. I prefer to do it when I want to, not when I have to for the financial aspect of it.
Sume times I even do it for free for friends, people I know even though they may not be that good of friends. Lot of times I just do it because I enjoy doing it and I enjoy getting the pleasure that it brings people when they see their nice new floors. A lot of times I given them extra and they get more than they’re actually paying for, again, for the simple reason that I enjoy it.
So we can choose, I think, anything that we want in this life. We just hafta think about what we want. I think a lot of it should start with how we want to feel. I mean that’s really where it should start, how do we want to feel? What circumstances would help to bring about those feelings?
Then I think we should go about creating those feelings before everything else kicks in place because that seems to be what triggers the creating process really quickly without even doing enything els.
Just allowing myself to be relaxed, calm and content. Knowing that I can create anything that I want-anything and everything. Sometimes I like to reinforce that belief because I think that belief is important because that triggers the allowing of the creative process to open up, expand, become more. I mean doing it and not believing in it, I don’t think that really serves a purpose. Doing it and questioning whether it works isn’t really believing.
So regardless, I think there are levels of believing and I like to always spend a little bit of time enforcing the belief and increasing it, making it stronger, just by sitting, looking at my pictures, and my little doodle drawings of things that I want and so forth. I just saying to myself, “yeah, I can create anything, anything that I want. All of this.”
So when I start the creating process, let’s say with my 3.6 million. This would go the same as if I was creating a car-I would do the same process. First, I’ve got the numbers written down here and I look at the numbers. You know, I like the numbers, the way they look.
So I just look at that and I say, “it’s a beautiful number.” I like the way it looks. It feels good. It’s the right number for me. It has a balance to it. It just feels good. How nice they are. Feels good to have them in my bank account. That’s a nice, fat little bank account. Chubby bank account.
Feel good having that money, having created it, having it there. I feel more caring for other people when I have that. Strangely enough, it’s almost, you know I thought about this morning when I walked Roody, that when I think about having it, I’m much calmer. I’m much more caring towards other people. I like them much more. I’m less critical of people, you know, probably ’cause I’m less critical of myself. I don’t need to be so critical of myself, I’ve allowed myself to have something wonderful. I wish them the same.
What is freedom
Where dus it start
Is it a feeling
Is it an exspereanc
Is it how we feel abut the exspereanc
Is it the abilaty to desid how we feel
So first thing this morning I went in to experiencing having 3.6 million even befor I get out of bead. I think from here on I should call it “experiencing” rather than creating. Because “creating” means? Every time I say that, it gives me an image of not having it and then I come up with words like “trying to create it” and trying is something? Well, it’s the thing that you do, when you are not achieving something. You are trying, but you are not achieving it. Also you are not having it.
So I’m thinking more about the words I use to discrib something. Because how I describe it is also how I think about it.
I realize more and more every day, that my focus with experiencing the 3.6 million has to be on the experience not on creating, not on anything else, but on the experience of having it. Experiencing having it, experiencing it being there and that doesn’t need to expand into spending it or anything else, because that is a different experience. What I’m working on is the experience of having.
I’m refining it a little bit every day and that’s basically what I’m going to keep doing. I’ve got to get it down to a more finer point, where it’s more focused into the having. Not creating, not receiving, not spending, not investing just actually having. Walking down this path with the experience of having the 3.6 million, see. Sloly more of my thoughts of money become thoghts of having it not creating it.
I can walk down this path in many different ways. I can walk to the store with the experience of having, very little money or I can walk to the store with the experience of being a millionaire! Both are walking to the store but both feel totally different because as in I have much more confidence when I walk to the store having the 3.6 million. There is all kinds of little feelings and I actually have to find them as in how it would feel to walk to the store, knowing I have the 3.6 million. I’m sorta learning and finding that experience and I’m researching it, fine-tuning it. Really getting down to the experience of it, which takes a little bit of work, because, like I said, I have to find what that’s like to experience because I haven’t had the experience.
It’s like driving a car you have to look forward, you have to look straight ahead. Race car drivers get taught this: “Look exactly where you want the car to go, not where it’s sliding. You are coming around a corner and you look at the direction that the car is sliding that’s where it’s goning to end up going. If you look at the direction where you want the car to go that’s how you get it to go there.” That’s the very first thing the race car driver has to learn.
In the experiencing of the 3.6 million, in other words, we begin atracting the events, sorcomstanses, coinsadenses, timing, pepole, idears and opertunatys to bring it to me.
It’s a really good feeling, because it feels, like I’m highly focused, my energy is highly focused, and I feel energizes it’s very exciting and I feel good afterwards.
I feel like I’ve actually accomplished something afterwards. That’s what I’m trying to say. Yeah, when it really gets in there, and it clicks in there, and for the few moments I have a really good grasp on what it feels like and I’m feeling it, and I’m feeling proud and excited and energized from it. I feel like I’ve accomplished something.
It might have taken me 5 minutes to get there, 20 minutes to get there it changes from morning to morning. Some mornings it takes me 5 minutes to get to that feeling, another morning it takes 20 minutes. Sometimes it takes 3 tries to get there. The point is when it gets there I really feel like I’ve done my whole morning’s work. You know, I feel like I’ve really accomplished something.
It’s a funny way of saying that but that’s wha