Some Things are Worth Believing In
“Money Is love”
Back cover
Do you think it is possible for a book to be so….. (I don’t have the word for it) that even by the simple act of reading it, something happens and the things you have been asking for all your life start falling from the sky like snowflakes?
Forward
If you have read my books you know I don’t fool around, I want what I want and that’s that. What I wanted was a way to create the life experience we want to experience and I wanted it in a way that works very easily without all the running around on the full moon with one foot stuck in your ear on that special day. I wanted this for myself and for everyone else.
I wanted it so that as someone reads it; it would already start working. After 4 years of hard work I thought I had failed and wasted my time; I decided to take the summer off to reflect and redirect my life. Without realizing it I was being directed to do what was required for the book to become a reality, I became the observer not the director.
It achieved what I had dreamed of, a book that already starts to create your dreams while your still reading it.
Is that possible? Of course it is! A universe that can create all that is, can do anything! I think it was just waiting for someone to ask for it.
Its not magic (I think?) it opens the flow of Love, source energy, the power that resides within you that flows thru us, whatever you want to call it, and all you need to do is direct it to what you want to experience.
Maybe that is magic! It’s definitely a gift.
Things are about to get good!
My wife is still a punk.
First of all, since I’ve put out the book “Living on Love”, I’ve received thousands of letters from all over the world, I received all kinds of mail on how well it works for people, “it’s the missing link, that is how people referred to it”, people realized very quickly that it makes sense to them. If you come across some information and the information rings true, something in you automatically clicks and that tells you that this is correct, this is a part of life in a way it’s supposed to be. You can instantly feel it when you hear it...
People have written me and explained how their life has changed, how much it’s improved … all kinds of wonderful things. At the same time, though, I do get a lot of emails from people that find themselves blocked. They’ve worked very hard all their lives to… be good, to do to be what they call “spiritual”, be fair to other people and just try to create a more joyful and wonderful world for everybody. They have worked hard at improving their life’s, to making their life filled with more joy. But at the certain point they find they are blocked. Now, once they come across the information on Living on Love, people began to work with sending love and so forth, radiating it out and immediately things began to improve. But for many people, they find again, they get to a certain point and that’s where it sort of stops. It’s almost like there is a resistance there, they just can’t get past it.
Guess, what the biggest issue is? It’s abundance, it’s financial, and it’s money. That’s where the biggest problem comes from. There is a certain point and it just doesn’t seem to go any further for people. Abundance is necessary to expand, to go further. It’s important because that’s what we use as trade here we just exchange it. The money has no value, as far as the Universe is concerned, it’s just a piece of paper like any other paper, but to us we use it to trade and it represents an abundance, something we need. Even if you want to be an artist, you have to be able to buy paint and the more paint, the more canvas and a place to put all this canvas the more artistic, the more freedom you have to create from the inside. The more you are forced to live in a financial restrictive way, the more restrictive your art becomes we all know this.
The abundance becomes extremely important. at certain point in your life it becomes as necessary as air, but, you know, when you do all this work, and make all this effort, and you read the books, and you do the visualization, the meditation,and it just doesn’t go any further… What happens next? Well you get feelings of depression, feelings of anger, because you are upset, you are angry, you see someone else, perhaps, who doesn’t seem to do that much and the money seems to be flowing into their pockets quite nicely. That’s because the Universe doesn’t care who asks or what you ask for the Universe that we live in will supply you with whatever you ask, no matter what your behavior is it doesn’t discriminate. It is an unconditional loving machine, in a sense, I said “loving machine” excuse that saying please, but I’m just using it, so it just unconditionally loves and unconditionally gives. But the issue is we are incapable of receiving. That’s where the block is!
Other people as an example they receive money and abundance and it just drops into their lap with very little effort and not even working very hard. Most of the time they are just playing and through the progress of just living and enjoying life they are just following into the circumstances and all the events that need to take place for them to become even more financially wealthy, so they have even more resources to enjoy life. Well, on the other token, another person who is working very, very hard is not achieving that.
I realized early along this path that the problem lay in allowing. Over the years many people have worked at solving this issue. The Universe is giving it, but we are not allowing ourselves to receive it that’s where the problem is. It’s right there, but we are not allowing it. Many times we are resisting the very thing we want it’s just mind-boggling.
Anyway, there are so many people that try to teach people to allow! They’ve written books, do seminars, do all kinds of things, and these things do help for a time and then they get all blocked up again…
Oh, one of the books that I really like is Abraham-Hicks (www dot Abraham Hicks). You can find them… web pages on the Internet, and they write some wonderful books and all their writing and talking is about allowing. To open that allowing in a person it’s very difficult to do that, because you have to change almost the whole thinking pattern, many times that’s what is required to allow the allowing, in a sense, to change how we think about things. Because we are thinking in a certain way and that thinking pattern that we’ve learned “there is not enough of this, there is not enough of that…” If that person has a whole bunch, he has it all and no one else can have it. These things are all untrue.
For 4 years I’ve been at this, trying to figure out a way to by-pass this block, finding a way to engage the allowing.
Finally I came to the conclusion that, perhaps, I’m not doing this right myself. You see, I’m in a sense asking for something and I’m not receiving it. Now, I know: if I’m asking for it, the Universe is already trying give it to me, so I’m not in a receiving mode. I ask for some information that I can give to people that somehow opens up their allowing and allows things that they are asking for, that the Universe is trying to give to them, so it just flows in.
I realized… What I was doing was resisting the answer somehow. I don’t need to look at how I’m resisting it so much, as how am I going to open it. I realized what I’m asking for most people would consider impossible, but maybe I need to do things a little differently. So what I did, I used my creating process to create a book. A Book that someone picks up and just by reading it something changes in them and the allowing begins to open up. That resistance to receiving lets go.”
You know, it’s like a… it’s like something plugging a hose. All the juice that we want is trying to flow to us but there is that rag, that’s stuck in the hose… I just wanted a book very simple, that a person just reads and maybe does a little something here and there, but basically just from reading it, the resistance is let loose. That clog, that’s plugging the allowing to receive, just lets go, and the things we’ve been asking for start to flow in. Because once it starts to flow in, then people get very excited and start having good feelings and start sending out and radiating out more love, which then brings more to them.
So all we need to do is get it started. It’s like an engine you know, once you get the thing running it’ll just purr like a kitten. So that’s the point of this book. Well these 3 books!
Now I realized what I wanted. I wanted the book that can do that. How do I do that? Well I have no idea, I don’t even have the intelligence to do a book like that, and I wouldn’t know where to begin. So I simply pretended I already had it so much so, that I thought I actually had it. Sometimes I would come back from my walks (where I would do my pretending) in such a degree, that my belief system kicked in. In other words I’m pretending it to such a degree that I believe it. I would come in and I’d want to grab the book and then I’d realized I don’t have the book, I have not written it yet.
I did this for quite some time. Maybe 6 months, , and then I sort of let go of it. One day I went to a store I didn’t even know for sure what I was buying. I bought this digital recorder. I came back and started doing recordings! Very quickly I realized what was happening, and I came to believe that the book is forming. At first I thought maybe I’m just recording my way of creating, but then I realized that more is happening here. So I’m just going to play along with it and just do it.
Every day, when I go for a walk in the woods (special places) with my dog, I would do the recording, just like this that’s what I’m doing right now walking in the woods and I’m recording. I would just… begin. At the end of the recording I really had no idea of what I said. I have not listened to any of the recordings at all, even to this date. I’ve got someone else to transcribe it.
As I started reading the book just to correct some things. I could tell something was changing inside! That’s when I realized I have achieved it. Well, what I really achieved was the asking and the allowing to receiving it the Universe really achieved it.
Never the less, there it is! I believe, I know, I trust it’s worth believing in. You just sit there and you read it, you relax and just let it be, let it be as it is. Forget about the spelling, abbreviation, it’s the way its written just let it be. I believe that it will do exactly what it’s supposed to do it will help you to remove that block and allow the allowing of the things that you’ve been asking for to come in be it money, be it relationships, be it friendships, be it whatever.
The Universe and All That Is wants to give you that stuff. That’s what makes life such a great experience. Money is where the biggest block is. Money is a representation of allowing, money is a representation of abundance, of time, of joy and of experiencing… I mean if you don’t have the money, you can’t even really afford to go for a walk, because you are too busy working and trying to earn it somehow. There are all kinds of things that open up when we allow the abundance to open up. When the abundance of money begins to flow in more rapidly, more easily, we are given also at the same time more time to improve ourselves, more time to radiate love, more time to meditate, more time to give love to other people… All kinds of things open up!
It really improves the entire Universe. Every time someone allows receiving… allows themselves to receive everything they have been dreaming of, they expand the Universe and help the allowing that everyone else wants also.
Something that I’ve worked so hard on for so long… was in actuality so easy that all I had to do was ask for what I wanted and just simply allow it to come and the Universe brought it to me. See, nothing else was really required, so the 4 years that it took to bring all this about from start to finish were really unnecessary.
What it took was just allowing, allowing myself to receive that which I wanted. Now, that I’ve allowed myself to receive it I have something to give.
How important is allowing? If you are not receiving enough you are not allowing stuff to come to you then you are pretty limited on what you can give. Because you’ve got to receive before you can give. It’s that simple. If I didn’t allow myself to receive this, I couldn’t give it.
What about the rest of the world? You will take care of that part, when you’ve received. Then you really have something to give. So allow yourself to receive everything, because the Universe wants to give it to you. See, if it can’t give it to you it can’t give it to anyone, in a sense. Because if everyone is saying “No” – oh, then the Universe can’t give us anything So everybody has to start saying “Yes”. As everybody starts saying “Yes”, the Universe can begin to give us what we want. If everybody continues to say “No” we will, in a sense, have less, and less, and less, and less.
So, we should really say “Thank you!” to all of the very-very-very wealthy people out there, because they’ve said, “Yes”. And if they wouldn’t say, “Yes”, we would be in a big trouble, because the car dealerships wouldn’t work, because the construction workers wouldn’t work…
See, the whole process hinges on allowing. When we allow, we allow the Universe to create. Doesn’t that make perfect sense? We have the ability to radiate out the love and to receive what’s required to experience an ever-expanding joyful life First for ourselves, because then we have something to give.
As you read through it and go along with it and just listen to the words and what is said and the questions that are raised it will lead you through a path that takes quite a few months. This process will take probably anywhere from a minimum of 30 days to a year.Lots of little changes will unfold at the beginning but for a real swing-around of your life it takes a little longer.
This book is not designed to entertain you. It is not designed to capture you to make you want to read it like a story. It’s not a movie, it’s not there for entertainment, and it is there for one reason to unlock your abilities to create the fantastic life that you want.
We found with all the work that we have done that if a person has resistance let’s say for receiving money and we directly look at that resistance and say “There is your resistance, make a change!” By looking at this, the resistance it gains energy and grows stronger. So we need to remove it without looking at it and without focusing on it. That’s exactly, what the book does.
So forget about the spelling, forget about the words, the way they are placed. Yes, it’s not a smooth written book and it’s not suppose to be. By the very criteria of the way a book should be written you could by that very principle literally destroy what the book is supposed to be doing.
To truly live a beautiful life you need abundance – abundance of friends, abundance of paint for the painter, abundance of money all kinds of things.
That’s what’s required to live a beautiful life, to totally expand.
This book is not designed for your entertainment or for your approval. It is there to change your life.
As you read this, some of you will find enormous resistance coming up. This can’t be changed, because inside immediately you realize unconsciously that your life is going to change and a lot of times resistance will come up. It’ll make you anxious, it’ll make you annoyed, and you’ll want to throw the book down. It can even bring up anger and other feelings. If you feel that you know that there is a huge amount of resistance in you,resisting the change that you really want in your life. So one part we are resisting it, and at another part we are wanting it with all our Soul and Love. Take a moment, take some time, and talk to yourself. Say, “It’ll be OK, it’ll be OK! We’ll just read thru it. Little by little, think about what’s been said, whether it makes sense to us right away or not. We’ll just allow it to be.” Take your time.
You already know something is happening!
Klaus
Roberta my wife “the punk” the job nobody else wanted
Kostya Kovalenko for the web pages, translating, transcribing and endless other stuff
Kostya’s wife Natalia Shulga for supporting him and his work
I would also like to thank the people who donated they’re time transcribing the recordings
Joyce Slater
Ulrike Haupt
and
Lutz
Thank you
I was just sitting here thinking what if the real purpose to life is joy?
The Real purpose of life might be finding, seeing beauty, just experiencing life in a joyful way. What if that is the real purpose for life?
In the past I’ve read all kinds of things “life is a lessons, life is to learn to be” but in actuality the being that a person is, is so large and the knowledge base is so extensive that there is nothing to learn here, there is an experience here, like an experience of vacation. We go on vacation to experience. To feel good we go there to experience joy to see things, to experience things, to feel things, and basically to feel good. So we leave our jobs, our homes and all our responsibilities and we go over there, somewhere: “catch a plane and go there!” And for let’s say 2 weeks, 3 weeks or a month we create a new semi-life filled with joy, doing things that we really want to do; and for a time in a sense releasing our other life, we rest, we live, we experience! Being happy is number one.
So for that time we are really experiencing, I think life in a way it is supposed to be, a life filled with joy. Not to grind away at what we do every day – traffic, hurry, rush, going to a job that we may or may not like, doing things because we need the money.
Let’s suppose a person was a lawyer! And they really didn’t like being a lawyer, it wasn’t joyous to them, it didn’t bring them joy. Sure there are good days but most times it was not really what they wanted. They have a family, they make the excuses that they have to support the family bring in income, house, more money all that. Perfectly good reasons, makes perfect sense. But not if life is meant to be a joyous experience, and meant to be an experience basically with the highest purpose being joy…
OK, that’s perfect; let’s try that again:
Basis of life is experience and the purpose would then be “to experience as much joy, as possible”. So, then many things we do, all of a sudden don’t make sense.
I think, our life is based on something illusionary, it’s based on survival, getting through the day, trying to find joy and balancing but not really understanding. I think, if somebody could’ve come early on, when I was still very, very young and said:
“Listen, the whole basis to life is to experience”.
“Experience”?
“Yeah, just experience. See the beauty, feel the experience of the wind, the ocean, the air, the sun, the rain, all that and make it as joyous, as possible.”
“Find the way to be happy, experience joy, be here to experience and make the experience joyous!” then everything I’d be doing, even before I’d be doing it, I’d be asking myself: “what kind of experience is this going to be? Good experience, bad experience? Happy experience?”
I’d be looking for something every moment that would give me the experience that would bring me joy, my mind then would also constantly be focused on joyous things, on happy things, be focused on experiences I really enjoy. As my mind is focused on more of those experiences then the possibilities for that would be attracted to me. In a sense, when we focus on something, we sort of create a magnetic field around us and we pull that towards us. This is much like a commercial that keeps feeding you suggestions so we keep feeding suggestions into the Universe and basically we become a magnetic to it, and it brings it towards us.
So what experience am I going to do next? Eat something, watch a movie, or go for a walk? Do I look after the vacuuming? This doesn't sound like a good experience. Maybe it can be?
Let’s say if I’m an artist, I would want an experience of creating what I envision in my mind, or a feeling and I would want to carve it into a piece of stone. The experience that I would want is that financially it’s not an issue it’s not something I need to think about. Its just is there.
You could be an artist and, in a sense, enjoy the struggle of trying to survive. But I think that after a while, it would not be an experience of expanding joy.
It’s sort of like jobs If had, that I enjoyed doing for a time but I would not want to do them on a continuous basis.
I’ve enjoyed doing them for the experience. If that’s what life’s about, then I’m still on the right track. If I’m doing something for the experience to experience it and experience as much joy as posable. Then I’m doing it, well, for the experience. Not for the supposed lessons or for the grind of survival or for purpose of money, which comes back in some ways to survival. Of course, the money part buys us joy too because we buy the things that we want to experience.
So is it necessary in life then really to work at something that isn’t bringing us joy and pleasure that we don’t wake up in the morning excited to do it?
I’ve met people that work long hours at things they really love. They work those long hours, because they enjoy it and there are times when I do that. I might be creating a project, building a boat or something and I can’t even stop. I mean I keep going till I drop, because I just love the experience so much and I envision the experience of what I am going to have when it’s complete. That I would say then is a good experience!
It’s fully filled with joy even though I’m working long hours on my project and I keep going and going until I almost drop. I was so excited, and it brings me so much joy, that I can’t even stop to eat. That can be painful, because your body of course starts aching and it says “Hey! Enough is enough!” But there is so much joy involved, that the pain – Ha! – Actually becomes joyous. See, so there is a lot of frame of mind involved there also.
I also notice that when I have something that I want to do so bad, that I can hardly sleep, I get up in the morning and first thing I just want to get to it I don’t care about breakfast or anything, I just want to get to it. It creates so much joy and in turn creates massive amounts of energy. My body becomes much more alive, everything tastes better, I feel more, Feelings are more intense, you feel more alive, you are full of energy, you are not drained, you are excited!
If we fill our day with something un-joyous it’s actually draining,but if we more and more change our activity and our focus over towards experiencing life, it could be the experience of smelling of flowers just in a breeze, like where I’m sitting right now. Every once in a while there is a little breeze that comes along from a little wild flower patch over there. It just brings the whole scent over here and I’m engulfed in it. Then it slips away, and then it comes back. That’s the experience! That’s a joyous experience.
The person who is mentally and physically drained because of unhappy life experiences totally ignores and or not even notices this kind of experience.
Every time I looked at people who are grinding away at life it’s like the valve has been shut down. They just don’t have the energy. In the past I worked at things that I thought were bringing me joy, but in some ways I realize now that I was so numbed out, so tired, so drained, so lacking the joy in me, that I didn’t even realize what I was doing was not bringing me any joy. If anything, it was bringing me further down. It’s not how I really wanted to be, or what I waned to experience. But it seems like that’s where I should be. That’s what I should be enjoying. That’s the experience that we’ve been taught to…do...be...act? Is this how it is?
Everything is based on experience.
So, working 8 hours a day that means there is 8 hours I could fill with experiences, experiences so joyful and fulfilling that, when I leave life, you know pass on, I want to spend my time talking about it and telling people about it. Interesting! I like that. 8 hours to fill. OK, let me think about it
Oh, what was it I was talking about yesterday? Joy, reason for life, wanting joy, looking for experiences… Live life for the experience, find and enjoy an experience. But I don’t know if that’s working today.
Let me look at it what have I done today? I went and picked up a package from a shipping company to return my laptop for some repairs that needed to be done, warranty or… Oh, let’s see, I went looked at a job that somebody wants me to do, I bought a generator for the boat a new one. Dealt with some publishing contracts, which always are a pain in the ass oops, I didn’t say that did I? Well, OK, then I read the instructions to the generator, tried it out, and talked to my neighbor for a few minutes, all this before lunch. Hurry, hurry I do, but I don’t enjoy, but I do it efficiently.
I don’t think it was a joyful thing, it was just a thing, you know, it’s not… It feels like just something I passed through sort of like something that is just there but it’s almost meaningless. It would be like eating ice cream that has no flavor and isn’t cold or warm. Well, it isn’t enough its like chewing on gum with no flavor. I don’t know something is missing. Some of it just seems to be like chores and not really experiences. I don’t know if that’s the way life is supposed to be?
I don’t know exactly what tomorrow will be but. Yeah, today is better, then it was. I mean, if I think back now, before I learned about sending love and all that… Much better, this is a much happier experience. Even going through the process of all this today, it still feels more joyful, but in a sense it’s not something worth putting on a piece of paper. I don’t think it’s even worth putting in a diary. It’s not something you can really carry with you. Some of it I don’t like at all like the publishing stuff. Why do you want to change my writing its mine it’s the way I write and (its right by me) as pirates would say, if I did it your way It would not be me it would be you and who do you think wants to be you?
I’ve received a couple of offers that look fair and I get a good feeling from them that they are genuine. I just sign a contract and go for it. This other guy, where from the start he is trying to cream me I mean straight out, right face-to-face he is trying to take me for a ride, rather than just make it something that’s fair and be done with it. The worst part is don’t think he has read the book at all. I don’t think he’s got it through his thick head that I would catch on that he is trying to take me for a ride. I mean it’s not a little ride he is taking me for; he is taking me for a full course. I just have to look at that and say. Why do you do that? For money! Is that the only way, we believe, that we can get the things that we want by taking it either from someone else or by squeezing out the most we can out of a deal, which is really squeezing in turn someone else, right?” Because there is always someone else at the end of a stick rather than just letting it flow in more abundantly we take it from someone else because that’s what we have learnt.
I see that so much and it really upsets me. It just bothers me. It’s just… why, and why I am thinking this, is this my life? I hate looking at it; I hate seeing it. I can’t seem to turn away from it. Of course, when I see it it upsets me because I’m letting it upset me rather than turning around as I should be doing and immediately seeing that, this person is working from their fear and weakness; I should just turn away and look at somting happy. Let it be. Let him turn the tables around on his own.
Most times I do just sometimes it sort of catches me. I guess, today I’m tired for some reason so it feels a little draining.
Nevertheless! To try to increase the joy in my life?
So, now this is shortly after lunch. I’ve had my lunch. It wasn’t exactly very exciting, just some plain noodles. I just didn’t feel like making anything, and Roberta has gone out for lunch with a friend of hers, which is good, it’s something that makes her happy. That’s good.
So I’ve taken my boat and Roody we are sitting on an island overlooking the ocean and all the sailboats and boats that are anchored out and this is pretty good, nothing wrong with this!
I have to change my thoughts here because I’m looking at what I dislike today, I’m looking at what’s sort of making me unhappy. I need to look at the good moments because there were other good moments. For instance,I had the money to buy the new generator for the boat. It’s working so nice and quiet you can hardly even hear it running. It’s really cheap on gas. Handy. So, that’s a good thing and a deal went down really fast, no problems. I walked in the door and there it was, right there, exactly what I wanted. The guy wouldn’t take my old one for trade-in but he said he’d sell it for me, and he’s going to sell it for more money than I actually was going to ask for it.
So, most things are good. I’ve got to switch because if I stay focused on what happened today that I didn’t like then in the future I’m recreating that same feeling experience. I’m not recreating the same experience but an experience, which would give me the same kind of feelings. So I must focus on good things like the grass, I’m sitting on and the birds I can hear chirping and the warm breeze, the sun. I’m sitting in the shade right now. You know what? [OK, God, I’m a dork] sometimes!!! This is like a postcard.
Come to think of it I was looking at a magazine yesterday. I’m looking at these pictures and I say “Wow, this would be nice!” Look at I’m sitting right in one. Islands in the distance, a shoreline, boats sailing, boats anchored out, warm breeze, quiet, just birds, the grass slowly moving in the breeze. Roody he is sitting in the tall grass with his ears up like a lion; actually he looks like a lion. He likes it out here. He likes sitting in the tall grass and just looking at everything. This is good!
If I think back 5 to 6 years, this was exactly what I was dreaming about: to have a life this simple, where I could just enjoy, experience my surroundings, enjoy watching leaves come out of the trees in the spring time, watching them expand. The flowers! Oh, smell that grass! That’s nice! The ocean! The sand! The mountains in the distance and the clouds in the distance every minute I spend on this enjoying it, appreciating it, every minute I create another minute of equal joyfulness in the future. You got to like that. A life not free of work, but free of the pain and dullness.
Every minute I spend appreciating really bringing up good feelings, positive feelings, and happy feelings, feelings of joy, excitement, wonder, and appreciation, like appreciating my surroundings. Every minute I spend on it, I create another future minute or more. So if I spend the whole week appreciating, I create a whole other week. If I spend a whole month, I create a whole other month.
If I look back let’s say 5 to 6 years ago I wasn’t ever feeling this good. I mean this would have been one of my very, very, very best moments that would have lasted for a very short period of time. So with my practicing appreciating I have come to being happier, I succeeded in achieving a level of happiness I didn’t even know I could have. So that means if I keep going 6 months from now I’ll be even happier, than, let’s say, the happiest days I’m having now.
“I’m just thinking out loud here….”
As I sit here now, I see much more than I did before Colors are more vivid. I feel more, than I did 6 years ago. I see the trees more clearly, it’s almost like things were a little blurry. They didn’t seem blurry at the time, but in comparison, now when I think back, yes almost like everything was a little bit blurry. Not as sharp, not as green, not as red, not as blue. It seems like there is almost more color now.
The wind feels better. The rain feels better. I like everything more, than before. So I think it all can improve. Let’s say for instance that something that’s upsetting now, I might come to the point where I am so happy that I am unaffected by it. When I’m unaffected by it, then it will also virtually disappear and not happen anymore.
As I think about things in the past that used to happen, they don’t happen to me anymore. I haven’t even noticed just how good everything really is, has become.
I mean even the money flowing in is different. It’s like I don’t need to do as much for it as before where I had to almost break my back just to make ends meet. It just seems to flow in and go so much further. I just haven’t been paying attention to how much it has improved! Yes, I’ve spent time appreciating but didn’t really looked back and see just how far I’ve actually come. That makes a huge difference. OK, so that means that my life is going to improve even more! Now I’m feeling even better. Actually, since I’ve been talking about this positive stuff without doing anything else I’m feeling better! All of a sudden, now I have energy. For 15 minutes I’ve been talking about positive things. All of a sudden I’m just full of energy.
I feel good. My headache is gone. How do you like that? I feel my valve is open, I can feel the love flowing, that energy, that love energy flowing through me. Just like that! Without doing anything… I focused on things that are positive and left everything that’s negative. You know what? I don’t really have to do anything about the parts that are negative. Like with those publishing contracts I don’t have to do anything with it, I can totally leave it, I can totally ignore it. It’s unnecessary for me to live my life being upset. I’ll just simply say “No” and that’s it, “Thank you very much, thank you for being there, thanks for making me an offer. Thanks for showing me how to point my thoughts in a direction of all the good things!”
So here is another really cool thing, there is a big giant boat out there, huge! I mean this thing is like somebody took a giant skyscraper and flopped it on the water. It’s that big. Amazing! That’s the amazing thing!
Somebody’s dream came true.
It was a big dream….
It makes me believe in what I can do.
How do I make this work even faster, better, “more money”?
My life seems like it’s complicated sometimes. Maybe we have dreams of it being simpler, easier. You know, in our hearts we know that life was not supposed to be a struggle. We knew, there would be some difficult times perhaps. But life was not meant to be a struggle filled with pain and lack of abundance. I don’t think that’s the way it was meant.
As I remember, mine started off that way. Or has it started off good and then went into all this? We don’t know all the answers, but I think what we do know in our hearts, is that this is supposed to be an experience. Whenever we go back home wherever we came from will we be able to explain how wonderful it was? All experiences, all the things we’ve tasted and saw, and the flowers! And the colors! The way a flower just comes out of a snow bank and literally pushes through a frozen ground! Giant trees, spreading their branches into the air standing there in the shear force of huge winds! Impossible odds. I mean, this world is so full of beauty, and on top of that, I think, you are supposed to observe this beauty and perhaps through the observing and appreciating expand it, create perhaps even more. Envision things even more beautiful, because the more we look at something we like, the more we want it and more of it, that is a natural process. We want to create more. We are always achieving something more wonderful, achieving more joy, more happiness. There is no end path in that. That’s a good thing because otherwise we get there and everybody would be preaching: “This is the end! This is as far, as you can go. This is where you now have to be happy no matter what. You can not go beyond this point.” But that’s not the way the Universe works! The Universe is ever expanding and scientists have decided, you know, that there is a Big Bang theory, the Universe expanding and contracting.
But now they are coming to the point of questioning this. As in “The Universe is just expanding and never contracting” In other words, never really coming together but expanding, pulling together, and expanding more. So as the Universe expands. Are we not also truly always expanding? Always reaching for more? Is that not part of the joy? Of knowing that no matter how happy you are today, no matter how many wonderful things happen today not only can they happen again tomorrow, but even more tomorrow!
All we need now is to remember is, how to make this hapen?
I have to remind myself of this every single day. Actually, many times during the day. “Why are you here, and what are you doing, and why are you doing it?” I have to ask myself constantly: “Is what are you doing right now is this really bringing you joy? Is this really what you want to do?” That’s a question, isn’t it? Is it something you have to do, so you can eat at the end of the day, or sleep in a warm place, or is this something you really want to do? Then there is a question of things that I do that don’t affect my survival but they do affect my day-to-day amount of joy and how I experience life. So I need to ask myself during those times “Do I need to do this?” That’s the question I think we should ask ourselves more and more. “Is this really what I want to do, is this really what’s good for me? Or I’m just doing it because… well… for centuries people have been doing it.”
Going to a funeral, for instance. I don’t go to funerals. I’ve only been to one, my mother’s funeral. I didn’t like it, it didn’t bring me any joy and frankly, it didn’t bring anybody joy. Why have they not been there when she was alive? Actually, come to think of it, I saw very few people come and visit when she was alive and yet, a whole crowd was there when she was dead. I don’t think that really serves the purpose. Now, as other people in my life pass away, others, of course, complain a little bit and grumble that I never show up at the funeral. But I say: “Listen, I was there when that person was alive. I was happy with them, talked to them, spending some time, those times that I wanted to spend with them. Now they are gone, they’ve moved on. So am I . Standing there would not bring me joy, so why do it?“
I’ll tell you why we do it because we think it’s right. Because we have this thing that says: “Well, this would be disrespectful if we didn’t.” We have all these issues. And also “what other people would say?”, and so forth, and so forth… And so we continuously do things that we don’t really want to do. I’m not saying that you or someone else does not want to go to a funeral. Not the same to each individual. Ask yourself, whether that’s right for you. Now, this is just one simple example. But there are hundreds.
Recently my dad passed away. He lived a long distance from where I live. It would have cost a lot of money to go there, take care of his apartment and the things involved and so forth. So I handed some things to a lawyer and some things to someone else that was close by, who wanted to take care of those things that needed to be taken care of because that’s what they like to do. I paid them, I said to myself: “Would it really bring me joy to spend that money to fly there and do all those things? Or would it be better for me to give them the money and let them do it. They want to do it; they want to have that extra money. In turn I am doing something in its place that’s bringing me joy.”
Now in the Universe if there was a billion of me at that moment doing exactly that, there would be a billion souls radiating at that moment with love and joy! Or scenario two: I go there, I do that, I grudge – it’s hurtful, it’s painful. I have to deal with past issues that were dead in me but now I would be facing them again and I would be unhappy. Now if I were a billion souls a billion souls now would be radiating unhappiness into the Universe. The more we focus on something that’s not really bringing us joy, the more we radiate out the opposite of what we really want to fill the world with.
We need to stop here for a moment and remember that there is also happy fear and happy pain.
Like the fear I get watching a scary movie. The fear I feel becomes part of the joyful experience, part of the excitement.
Like some of the physical pain I get when climbing a mountain. That feeling of pain becomes part of the joyful experience, part of the excitement.
Does it make sense? It makes sense, although at one point in my life I thought about this and it made perfect sense but I couldn’t live it. It can be quite difficult to live especially if you are surrounded by a lot of people who don’t understand.
I noticed that if I keep the time down that I associate with other people, and actually spend more time associating with those people when I’m in a happy state in other words, I’m actually doing something I want to do all those things, everything just seems to work out better. In other words the people are seeing me in a happier state. It seems to make them happier because they are not dealing with my issues any more. They are dealing mostly with my happiness. Which is a lot easier for them to deal with.
Rather then if I’m going there, meeting them in a down mood because I’ve done things that make me unhappy, doing what ever I don’t want to do. So now I’m going there, dragging all that what we call “baggage” with me, and in a sense I don’t think I’m all that happy to be around in comparison.
Now, again, forgetting that there is other people and just focusing on myself, saying: “Really at this moment it’s all about myself” and just being selfish a little bit. If there is a billion of me doing exactly the same thing focusing more on the things that we like to do. Then whenever I’m in an up mood, then being in contact with other people, all of a sudden we have this chain reaction happening. Every time I saw the other me he’d be happy! Because I’m already happy and meeting up with another me at the same time they are happy we become even happier!
Sounds wonderful, a little difficult to live at forst. It’s something that has to be practiced every day. Some days it works really well, some days in all honesty it doesn’t work because something has gone wrong and I’ll get in this grudging mood. I’ll give you a perfect example. Tax People.! Here are people who presumably, possibly, love their job but I’m not too sure how much they love people.
You see, instantly, I’m pulling myself and other people whom I really don’t know anything about down. Now, what am I doing? I’m talking about something and in a way that creates unhappiness in me because I don’t see it as something happy. The tax situation where the money goes even though I like the idea of tax, because tax makes a country quite beautiful, it pays for the parks, and the wildlife reserves, and the roads, and the schools, and the libraries, and many, many things. When I get into talking about tax, I switch right to the bad side. Rather than force myself to switch over to the good part, it’s better I leave this subject altogether until I’m feeling really good. I can look at a park and say: “Hey, you know what? Last year all that tax, I paid paid for that park, and what a beautiful place! In a hundred years from now that park is still going to be there.”
The problem here is not the tax or the people but my thoughts and beliefs on money, I am really focusing on the lack of money, not on the abundance.
You see the situation? You’re probably not feeling that good right now listening to that part and neither am I, I’m already feeling a little lower. So really ideally I should switch the subject. Not force myself to change how I think about something but it’s easier to change the subject because I don’t have to think about tax people. I have to do my taxes but that’s once a year for a few hours. The rest 364 days I don’t have to discuss taxes or ever give them another thought. Now, the beauty of that is when you ignore something, you give it no energy, none. No energy radiates from you into that subject. Now, a 1000 people can radiate energy into that particular subject, and so maintain it in other words, keep it in existence for them. That’s OK, because the creators are also receiving the radiation back from what they are focusing on. In other words, they are thinking about the tax constantly good, bad, positive, negative, in-between, doesn’t matter. The mixture becomes a soup and the balance reflects back to them. I let’s say do not focus on it at all. If I hear this subject, I am immediately to switch to something else. I’ll even change the conversation. Or I’ll engage in conversation with someone else, who is not focused on tax, but on another happy subject.
This keeps me disconnected from that particular creation in the Universe. So it does not affect me as long as I have no emotions abut it. You might say: “It’s not quite the way it works”. Actually, it is the way it works. Some people would say: “Ignoring something does not make it go away”. Actually, it does make it go away for me, because I’m not thinking about it, I’m not feeling it either so it’s not there. Yes, they are still collecting taxes, but I have no emotional attachment to it and it’s virtually gone. Now, what happens, in the mean time, because I’m not thinking at all about it, if the odd time it does come up, if I can bring myself to focus on the positive side, then my experiences with tax-related matters would become exact reflection of what I think, feel and what ever strong emotions I have.
Now, most of the time, of course, I’m not thinking at all of them. So, in a sense, what that means, tax related things would virtually be non-existent in my life only a very tiny bit. The experience of that will reflect exactly what I think of the tax situation when I experience it, when I think about it. In other words, if the entire year I spend a total of 60 minutes thinking, talking, and having an emotional experience about tax, and if in that 60 minutes, 50 minutes of it is on a positive side, and only 10 minutes is perhaps on a negative side, I will have a very, very large percentage of positive experiences. In other words, 50 positive minutes will already outweigh 10 negative minutes. The experience will basically be positive. Now, in a Universe they can go the other around if I’m spending, let’s say, 2 minutes on the positive and 58 minutes on the negative, then my experience will associate more towards the negative side. OK, but if I spend only that much time, it will be a very short period of negative experience that I will have from tax matters, because I’m only giving it one hour over entire year. If I have strong emotions about it and if I give it one hour a day then the experience becomes much larger and my tax experience can be an entire month-long of agony every year. Which means I would spend even more time thinking about it and giving it more time and energy and emotions to the negative side and so it will reflect even more of that. You see, how it creates a chain reaction, same as positive thoughts and positive thinking create a chain reaction that the Universe reflects back to us. Now when it comes to sending love each time we are really sending love, we are doing two things:We are talking, thinking, feeling and having an emotional experience of the subject and we are sending it love.
If we are sending it love, we would have our thoughts on a positive side, because you can’t have a thought on a negative side and actually send love it does not work. So it would be bringing up a good feeling about taxes and if you are sending love to all the people that deal with the taxes, filing them with love, and joy, that they are helping to create the beautiful parks and the roads and the walkways and the incredible libraries and museums and the art galleries and many, many things we have that the taxes supply us with. So many things, matter of fact; probably 99% of it goes, well, unappreciated, we just pass it by and never really give it a positive thought.
I carry a picture with me that really gives me a good feeling, like a sandy sunny beach, could be sailing, picture of a swimming pool. I will look at a picture and instantly bring myself there to the point where I really appreciate being there. In other words, I am practicing bringing up appreciation the feeling of appreciation, The feeling of love and feeling of appreciation is the same thing. The more I do that, the more I radiating positive feelings, the more I, radiating love out. That love will come reflected back. As long I allow myself to receive it back!
From the time we start this, it doesn’t take long before something wonderful happens, but at the same time, how we create here is like gigantic wheel that’s turning, and it turns and turns, and turns; and all the things we thought and felt three weeks ago are slowly coming into place. Even several months ago are coming around this big wheel and are showing up now. So when you start changing your thinking pattern, all the stuff you have on this wheel is still coming your way. But you are sticking new wonderful experiences on this wheel and the wheel is slowly turning around. Most good stuff takes at least 30 days and a little more to start coming around. Now if you continue on for 30 days, by the time 30 days are over, at the end of 30 days you’ve gotten even better at following your positive thoughts and doing more happy things. So the things that you are sticking on that wheel get even better!
we make the biggest change in our lives, when well, when the shit hits the fan, when we have the worst stuff coming off that wheel. That’s when we run for help. Look in a book, pick up a tape, and say: “I gotta get out of this! I must get some help. This is horrible, I can’t stand my life any more!”
Then we start practicing things, but all this crap that that we were thinking, that we created with our thoughts and feelings and emotions, is still coming at us from this wheel. So we play around with it for a week, couple of things go better, we feel a little better, but at the same time we are practicing something new, that takes an enormous amount of energy concentration and focus! Now at the same time we have all this other garbage coming at us, which also takes a lot of energy. So you can see the situation, how difficult it is to really continue on and get out of it. It’s tough, it’s real tough! Most people kind of go along and then they get tired and they let go.
Now by that time better stuff is already coming off that wheel again. But by that time most people; most of us (including myself many times in the past) have quit because we were just too busy struggling with all the stuff that was coming.
Now here is the nifty part: you probably think, “At some point all this will quit” It actually doesn’t quit, it just keeps going. It just becomes easier and once you understand it. Because, you see, there is no limit to how happy we can be! So when we come to stage 2 we say: “Wow! This is wonderful!” Stage 3 will be even more wonderful.
The idea is to increase your happiness. Now again, as you keep going up it does become easier but there is always that back lag on that wheel. Things you create today you will probably see in 30 days, some times less some times more.
So as we change our feelings today, our emotions, with sending love and focusing on what brings us joy, things will change, some things will change right away. But there is also a very large lag of some of the other things that take time. Some things can take even a year just depending on how it’s all balanced out. Mostly how open we are to receiving the things we want?
Sometimes, we want it right away but mostly we want things immediately because we’re not feeling that good. We don’t have enough happy things happen on a day-to-day basis and so we want some things right away. More money right away, instantly. We need it right now. Rather than just continue enjoying what we have and knowing trusting that even more is coming. We get scared that its not working and so on, and we panic and start thinking abut the possible negative results and our feelings spiral down until we are not in the receiving mode. I do this all the time. I’m such an idiot. I start creating something and then I freak out that it might not be coming. Which of course stops it from coming and so I have to start all over again.
OK there’s no chapter 4 because things got messed up shit happens and this is what it looks like, no point in hiding it, this is the real world so laugh a little and move on.
I thought this was suppose to be about how we stop things we really want from coming to us, you know we want something and we do the work and nothing comes? We have all been there.
Well hang in there a little longer. Please…!
I bet if the publisher sees this!
I bet 5 bucks he'll try to take it out. Come on I take your bet double or nothing.
Shit…! If you’re reading this ………then
Spiritual enlightenment? What is that? Everybody talks about it, not everybody, but you read it in magazines and books. Spiritual enlightenment. I don’t think there is such a thing. I think it’s just If there is something like enlightenment, if there is a point where you say I feel… Huh! I don’t think there is even a point where you can really say, “I feel enlightenment” Because learning never stops. Even though the amount I understand now of the way the Universe works… It never stops teaching me showing me more it just keeps going.
But I think if there is something I would want or want to understand then there is a way created a point in a non-existent time where maybe something changes that really changes your direction or how you view everything.
There are probably quite a few things like that and one of them would be becoming self-aware. Or becoming aware enough to know even if we are not totally understanding how, but we know, we are having a small understanding of the fact that we do create what we experience. We are not just a dot somewhere in the Universe, being bombarded by whatever just happens to be flying in that direction. I think we are a point, but I think we are attracting what it is that we are experiencing. That’s what I would call if there were such a thing as enlightenment in some way knowing that, that’s what I would call enlightenment then.
I used to think about “Why don’t we understand where we came from? Why don’t we remember?” The more I learn about various things, the more in a sense I want to go back to not knowing about them. All I really wanted to know was how to live a really happy life, a life where every day is filled with happiness, and every day happiness increases "OH YA" and Money lots of it. So there is always more happiness to look forward to. That’s really all I always wanted! That need for that happiness, I think, pushed me to learn to try to figure out how everything worked.
I’ve taken a week off to just spend looking at the flowers, looking at the trees, really looking at the world around me and observing it. Watching the birds, feeling the sun, the breeze, just getting in touch more with what surrounds me. I felt like I was running around, doing this and doing that and that’s what my life was about. I really wanted to be more observant, to see and to taste, like I think I’ve been saying I really wanted to experience more. I think what I am saying is, that even with the amount of joy that I am experiencing I want more. It’s funny to say that!
Today I drove the boat from Nanaimo to Pirates cove that is my favorite place to anchor the boat. I’m just sitting on the boat. At one time I’ve dreamt of this like it was an impossible dream and, my God, here it is: I’m sitting on my own 60 foot boat, looking at the blue sky the waves, water and the islands. It was so beautiful that I realized: I didn’t have the capacity to observe the joy. Or maybe to observe the beauty that surrounds me. I really haven’t expanded yet far enough to observe just how beautiful and fantastic it is.
There are moments, I get where I’m just so filled with appreciation and in one way it fills me with energy. I get really energized, and then it’s like “what do I do with this energy?” I mean, it’s just “what do I do?” Then I feel like I want more and see more of this beauty, of all the wonderful things we have on this planet. The colors, the beautiful cars, and motorcycles, the smooth streets we can drive them on, this world is filled with so much and I just feel my capacity to really appreciate it is not large enough, it’s like something is holding me back. Anyway, I don’t know where that came from?
I’ve taken some time off to learn to experience more. I’m looking forward to more, but at the same moment I am really focused in the moment then I find myself feeling like I’m not doing enough. Now, it’s a weird thing. Here I am anchored out Roberta is at a meeting somewhere with some friends they’re doing something. So it’s Roody and me on the boat, the boat is gently rocking in the waves. It’s a perfectly blue sky, really warm, a nice breeze I mean an absolutely perfect day! I just lay back and I’m seeing the eagles flying across the trees. I’m anchored in-between a couple of islands in a little tiny bay. Beautiful water, in a sense it doesn’t get any better than this! I take my little dinghy and I go a hundred feet and there is a huge park that goes on forever. You can’t even walk it in a day, the park is so big and nobody’s here. Hardly anybody comes here because nobody knows about this place. it’s just incredible!
Yet I want to go over there, and look at that, and observe the beauty of this, and I want to look at this, and go over here, and I want to walk over there, and I want to cross over to that other little island, and I want to cross over to that beach there, and I’ve already. I’ve spent part of my day driving the boat here, then I took Roody for his bathroom walk. I had a lunch then I measured the anchor length, checked the boat over, engine compartment, then I took Roody for a longer walk and we looked around in a forest a bit, came back, had a little nap. Now I’ve woken up from my nap, it’s probably, 2 o’clock. I still feel a little tired from the last month of just running around and from thinking, all this thinking I’ve been doing it’s driving me crazy! Why can’t I just live?
Anyway, I just sort of feel like sitting back and letting the boat rock me and yet I feel like I’m wasting my time, I should be enjoying more what a silly notion! Where does it all come from? We bring so much from our past that we’ve learned. See, that’s the problem, I think. I mean, everything we’ve learned, everything we know, we’ve mostly learned, observed, copied we haven’t really thought about a whole lot of stuff, we just kind of accept it. So it sort of seems like I should be always doing something. Just sitting here doing nothing is like wasting time. In the past when I use to do my lottery thing and I’d spent a whole day meditating, putting myself in a trance, it was like a job. I was doing something; I didn’t really feel guilty. Of course, I’m doing something now I’m thinking about my life, I’m thinking about how to improve my life, that’s doing something. Why do I have to run around and do something? Why can’t this just be my life?
It seems to work for the cat. I mean all he ever does is sleep! He gets up, has something to eat, walks around, sniffs a few things, looks around, comes back, sticks his feet in here, and goes to sleep again. What’s wrong with that? It’s a nice life! He is observing what surrounds him, enjoying what surrounds him. Hmm. I think that’s… What I should be doing is seeing, searching every moment for what would bring me the most joy and guide myself in that direction. Of course sometimes I don’t really know, do I? How do I really know?
In one way I could take the Dinghy (a small row boat) over to the other island and look across the ocean from shore. That would give me a lot of joy too. I could go to Silva Bay to the boat club there and have a huge apple pie. They give you an apple pie desert in a bowl. It comes in a huge gigantic soup bowl. It’s big, it’s a meal onto itself with 3 giant scoops of ice cream. That’s the best! If I go there with out Roberta, she finds out I'm going to get a lashing again, because I didn’t take her there, I wait till…? So maybe I’ll wait for this evening and save my life.
I wish my brain would explode…!
So to find what would bring me the most joy, right at this moment, to allow the best feeling to flow. To observe, to open something in me that can observe more of the beauty. To open something in me that allows the appreciation to flow even more. Now, when I’m sitting here and just looking around and appreciating it’s almost feels like if it opens more it will be too much for me.
Now when I’m appreciating, I think that there is a return radiance: when I’m appreciating, there is love going out radiating into everything that I’m appreciating, even things that are there that I’m not really focusing on they are still receiving. But there is a radiance that comes back from the outside, and that is what seems to feel almost like a stimulant that feels amazingly joyous, so much so that it almost, feels like “I can’t quite handle it!” It’s too much, or it’ll be too much!
Then right now! I noticed some fear. “What if I get too happy? Then if something goes wrong, I’ve got so far to fall!”
OK, so now I’ve got to deal with this little bit of fear. I wonder if everybody has that? That’s the thing. Everybody has it different degrees, different amounts, but I mean in some things we are all alike, I wonder, how much it holds us back? I’ve got the hiccups now.
See, sometimes, when you dig something up from the inside your physical body reacts. Fear is a funny thing, it has an enormous amount of power and a physical presence in your body. I mean, it can literally shut everything down. Suck the joy out of every moment. If we let it control our lives and our thoughts and our direction.
Important thing is just to realize it’s there. I can understand that fear I’ve had a lot of disappointments in my life.
Some times In the back of my head I just say “This is going to go bad and I am going to be disappointed so I’m not going to expect it or even hope for it. Well, unfortunately, that’s what causes us to stop the creating. When we dream of something, we want it, it’s actually coming towards us. When we appreciate having it, we appreciate how wonderful it’ll be to have it, so much so, that in a sense it’s like we have it. We then are in the receiving. In full force! The minute fear gets in there and says “Oh, but if we have this and something goes wrong, then it’s really going to be a far fall for us!” That shuts it down.
How many people maybe stay at a job, that’s not good for them, that maybe they should have left years ago… Because of that kind of fear “What if?” Yeah, “What if the other job is better? What if that life is better? What if something happens there and I have to go back to this life? Then what? Then how horrible will this be?” Yeah, I suppose. I wonder. Huh!
See, I think, that’s what I would call “self-enlightenment”, because that’s when you talk to yourself about yourself, how you think, how you feel for the purpose of improving your life. I think that’s self-awareness… Yeah, we're just going to call it that. I'm going to call that “self-awareness”. Really, I don’t think it ever stops. I think that’s a thing that you start wherever you are and you just keep going. It’s just like steps not always up, sometimes to the left, sometimes to the right, sometimes backwards. It just something that continues on.
Taking steps every day, mental steps, physical steps, lining up thoughts in such a way that there is a continuous improvement on the amount of joy that we experience every day in our life, that’s what I'm going to name “enlightenment”!
There you have it. I have spoken. Convinced myself of my own bullshit. But I like it. I think, again, it’s bringing me joy, so it is correct.
Now I feel really good! Because I’m enlightened, I’m an enlightened person! Spiritual… I don’t know what that word means. I hate that New Age word; I think we are all spiritual. There is no such thing, as non-spiritual. I think I should just drop it. Because what makes a soul, that comes here to experience battle less spiritual, than a soul that comes to experience sniffing the bark of a tree? Well, there are probably few people who are going disagree with that one, I would think. Yeah, well… that’s your problem
So much of the world is based on battle, wars. I’m going to call wars battle experience, because that’s really what it is it’s a battle experience, it’s something we do. Somewhere, I think, it’s something we like. I also believe that many; many souls have come to this planet for that purpose. It may seem bizarre, but when you look at the evidence, I don’t think it is that strange. When I truly look at myself, although at this point right here right now I would not want to kill another person, but the game that I most love to play is “Battlefield 1942”. And that is exactly what it is; it’s World War II game. There you have it.
See if we take the word spiritual and stick it up someone sss… then we’ll all feel better because its really a demeaning word when someone uses it, it means someone is less and some one is more, bull shit!!!
Looking at your best, looking at your worst that is self-enlightenment. Accepting, accepting ones self for whatever I am we could call that “spiritual”. Because we now accept ourselves good, bad all parts, and love them equally.
“This is me. Tomorrow I will be different, because I am always evolving and I am always changing to what I consider to be better, to be an improvement, towards experiencing more joy, more happiness. Whatever I am today if I can truly like that, love that hey, we could call that “spiritual”! It’s self-enlightenment, but it’s more, it’s special, it’s even better to being self-aware, it’s self-love! I think when I can love myself, then I can love someone else because I don’t have to criticize their negative parts, because I’m not criticizing my negative parts. Or what we would call “negative”. Why negative”? Sometimes I’m a grumpy person, sometimes I say rude things and sometimes, I think, I love to say rude things for some reason or other. Does that make me a bad person? No. It just makes me a person that does that at that moment. That’s that!
OK, so let’s call loving yourself, caring for self, just liking who you are “spiritual” I think, every year I like myself more, I become in tune with myself more. More accepting. I think that’s what it is more accepting of myself! Not just saying, “Oh, I’m getting better, I’m improving” just accepting myself for who I am. Just accepting that hey, lots of times I’m just a jackass! Or maybe I just behave like a jackass? Or maybe I sometimes behave like a jackass, because I am a jackass? Maybe it feels good to be a jackass sometimes? Maybe I like being a jackass sometimes? Maybe I should be a jackass sometimes? Hey maybe people even like it, when I am a jackass sometimes! Hey, now there is a thought! I like that too. Well, OK I think I made my point.
So, in a manner of I don’t know, how many minutes? I’ve become spiritual and what was the other word, “self-aware”? “Enlightenment”! Yes sir, spiritual and enlightened! What a great day!
The last little while I have been creating a little differently than I was before. I wanted to find an easier way to create the things, the experiences that we want to experience in life, or what I want to experience in my life. Sending love or opening that flow does work and I like that but…I just want something… Well, I think, I always need to… I have a need to find something easier, better, to improve. It’s just… otherwise I get bored with something. I want it as easy as natural as breathing, that’s the way it should be and I think it was meant to be.
Anyway, what I was doing was using appreciation. It’s all in the feeling of it. I decided to pick something that I really did not know what it feels like to have it. I picked 3.6 million dollars. It’s kind of an odd number. I tried 3.8, 3.7, three and a half it just didn’t feel right. I tried 1.6 – the number just didn’t sound like the right number, Three million, six hundred thousand It’s got a nice ring to it, it’s a nice number. I really don’t know what 3.6 million feels like. I don’t know what it feels like to have it. I don’t know the vibration. So it’s kind of far-fetched, not far-fetched, I don’t think, but something I haven’t really touched. So I just decided to go in that direction. Like a challenge! But some how, I don’t think it’ll be a challenge. I just think it’ll be fun. It’s just a fun project to do. I think it will open some doors.
So I’m using appreciation and today I really got a good feel for it. Better than the last few times it seems to get better and better as I practice appreciating it. At the beginning what I started doing was finding things to buy with that money. But then I’d find myself switching to thinking abut the product, like let’s say, I would buy a nice car, but then all of a sudden I was thinking about the car. Yeah, I was appreciating the car but, in a sense, if I’m focusing on something and sending that vibration out, so that it pulls back the vibration of 3.6 million dollars and brings that to me as my experience to have that 3.6 mil, to own it, to experience it in my life. Oh, I just felt I should stay on it, rather than on the things I could buy with it. Because it would go on endless, I mean I could buy a new pair of shoes, a new pair of whatever (my mind is blank why), buy a house (we don’t have a house right now, so Roberta would like a house). Definitely would buy that new surfboard they have out, it’s a motorized surfboard, and I saw a video of it’s the coolest thing, ten grand. So that would be dandy, you see that’s sidetracking again! From what I really want to experience I’m not asking for the experience of spending all the money, although I’m sure that would be the very next experience to the one of receiving it and having it and then spending it. Maybe investing some of it whatever the case that’s beside point, it’s not really what I am after.
Firstly, I’m after creating it, finding an easier way of creating it that doesn’t draw huge amounts of energy out of me, instead is very pleasing and is creating an energy and enthusiasm in me in the process of creating. Because I remember. I just think back to when I was first working on a lottery tickets I would spend 8 hours a day meditating and putting myself in trance and then taking all the numbers I have, and putting them together, and picking which ones to play and running to the store, and buying a ticket, and all that. Man, it was like full-time job! That was work! Fun but more work then a job.
Now I’m trying to create in a way that’s fun. Appreciation is actually a two-way flow where sending love is more like a one-way flow, even if there is a return. When we appreciate, it’s a 2-way thing we are also opening up to receive, so taking that in consideration, it makes perfect sense to use appreciation to create. Works very well but I want more. So for 4 years I've been working on creating a better way of creating. To created with the ability to create with a natural simple joyous way.
Well, I decided the trick is to stay kind of on a subject itself. So, I’ve picked 3.6 million dollars, it’s a nice number, I like it, I like the sound of it. Today I had a nap. While I was having a nap in this half-asleep state I was just pretending I have it. It’s just sitting in a bank. I wasn’t making a big deal of it, “Wow, Look at the interest! Look at what I can buy!” see slipped again. I was appreciating it, just being there, appreciating having it. Just like I’m appreciating a pair of shoes I have right now, otherwise my feet would be sore. I’m just looking at them and noticing just how good they feel. I don’t have to go into a big deal; I just considered how good they feel. Because I know, as I’m appreciating them my next pair of shoes are going to feel even better, fit even better, be even more comfortable because that’s what I’m saying to the Universe.
So in the same sense I’m just appreciating money, just feeling how good it is to have it, just sitting there in the bank. I want something, I can buy it, doesn’t matter what it is, it’s of no concern, it’s just there. Appreciate it, the creating of it, and the ease of it coming. But I didn’t really think about how it’s coming or any of that… Just kind of “thanks!” that it’s there. Feeling good about having it. [Just that it’s nice…] I just stay with that.
Then a real feeling of appreciation for it came up and it was very nice because it was a very simplistic appreciation. It didn’t have a lot of stuff, complications with it, just a very simple thing that it’s there. Just that plain and simple, thats what made it feel really good. There wasn’t all this mixture of complications of “how it’s coming?” “Where do I put it?” “Do I put it in a bank?” “Do I put it in a mutual funds?” “Do I do this or that?” “Am I suppose to pay tax on it?” “Do I pay tax on…” just who gives a shit? It’s just three million dollars, three point six million. So I looked at the 3 million and I looked at 600 thousand, and I went: “It’s 3 million 6 hundred thousand, which means the 600,000 is 600 (of) 1000 dollar bills. The million is like 3,000,000 (of) 1-dollar bills. Or one and a half million (of) 2 dollar bills.” Anyway, I just kinda looked at it like that, very simple, just saying simple things, and just kind of staying with it. Sometimes a thought would come of a motorcycle or something and I’d just say: “Thanks and I would just go back to the 3.6 million. I found it really easy to stay there. As I was lying there, it felt… Like I have it, like it’s already there, right now. I feel like it’s already there. I feel an easiness that I think a person would feel, when you have huge amounts of money and no expenses, no obligation to put it anywhere. Which means, basically, you can do whatever the heck you want, right? That’s not really what I was thinking about, because that’s a different story. That’s creating a free life-style.
Sometimes we say “I want this!” and then we start thinking about… Or at least I do it, and I assume other people probably do the same thing… We start to think about “How do I get this?” “I want a free life-style oh, how do I get it? Oh, I have to be rich. Oh, I have to have a business. Oh, I don’t have to work much. Oh, how takes care of that.”
So I’m not really trying to create more “How”, just what I want rather staying on exactly what I want. So the idea is just to forget about how, this is not important anyway, because we don’t have to create the how. We just have to get a good feeling of what it is we want.
Most people would say, “OK, but we’ve got to figure out what that is. Oh not unless you specifically want something specific. Just focus on “how it feels”, because the Universe really creates on a basis of our emotional feelings. There is a vibration that comes from emotions. They get pushed out and they get returned in physical matter and in physical experiences. So if we push out a feeling, radiate out a feeling with appreciation and when we use appreciation we know it’s going to be a good, it comes back automatically. No doubts about it.That’s a very, very high level of positive love that’s flowing out when we’re appreciating. I would then, just appreciate my wonderful business. I just appreciate how happy everybody is, how joyful everybody is, the income everybody is making, not just me, but also everybody. It’s good, it feels good, it feels good that everybody can make a good chunk of money. So nobody has to concern themselves with anything other than coming there and enjoying themselves. That’s a good feeling. What would it feel like to go there let’s say, 10 o’clock tomorrow morning? Would it feel really good! I’d be excited driving there. Can’t wait to get there. Happy to see everyone, knowing that everyone’s going to be happy to see me. Experiencing the ideas that are flowing around to make everything even better. It all sounds like a lot of fun! I can really get into appreciating it. I don’t think I want to go any further than that because I don’t want to really create the how. The universe will find the solution to the how.
For now I'm going to stick with what I picked, and as I sit here now, I going to appreciate my 3.6 million. Just appreciate them. I don’t need to buy anything. Matter of fact, I don’t need anything right now. At this very moment I have everything I need. This very moment, I couldn’t ask for anything more.
I’m looking across the ocean, the sun is going down, and there is a warm breeze. I can hear the water. It’s beautiful! I can feel the warmth. I just feel happy, grateful, and generous. About this 3.6 million see, that’s important, it’s just 3.6 million. There is no category with it, it’s just a number, and it could be 5 dollars it does not matter.
I think, in the past when I thought about this, I was looking at it as large “Wow! Holly cow! Is that a lot of money”? Now I’m just looking at it it’s just a number, it’s just there, that’s all it is. It’s not big, it’s not small, it’s not wide, it’s not narrow, and it’s just what it is.
That’s the simplicity of it! I think that sometimes in the past, when I was trying to create (even when I was using Love to create) I was making things a little complicated. I remember having a thought “Oh, is that greedy? Is that too much to ask for? I mean it’s not like I’m working for it. Should I just be receiving this? Shouldn’t I be contributing?”
Contributing what? I’m contributing large amounts of happiness and joy into the Universe, when I’m appreciating and I’m opening up the vault of the Universe, which has an endless supply of everything. Which means it makes it even easier for someone else. But see again at this very moment I’m justifying. That’s what I want to remove. Or better said just leave it alone.
That’s what felt so good. There is no justifying; there is no need to justify. I’m just creating it. No not creating I,t experiencing it. There is no reason to create; I don’t need a reason Just that I’m creating it. That’s it! Why does their need to be a reason? There doesn’t need to be one. We just create that’s all we do. We create, we enjoy, we appreciate that’s what we do. I think that’s how we create at the end… well… more and more beauty. Something that brings us more and more joys. By bringing ourselves into the experience of having it we set everything up for the creating and receiving of it. Keep it simple.
Chapter 7
I’ve been thinking today again about war. I call it battle rather than war because the word war has got such a stigma to it. I keep thinking about how our planet has always been engrossed in battle, one country fighting another country and so on. I thought about how many souls really come here to experience this, or have come to experience it. And maybe now looking for change and looking for new experiences and the mixture and possibilities for a variety of experiences on this planet are staggering. The possibilities are endless. Either way, the point is to create freely. Without question, without analyzing, without justification, just finding something that would feel joyful to create. Just like that: finding something that feels joyful to create! Not just having the item but also actually finding joy in creating it. We are here to experience. That’s the thing, that changes the whole point of living, doesn’t it?
Whoops! I found this piece of driftwood while I was recording this and almost fell into the hole here.
Anyway, I guess, a person should kind of… You know, there is no such thing as should. I remember some years back saying, “should’s” are “shit”. There is no should, I should… Ah, no should! No should's, just…want “I want.” “ I will.”
Creating just for the basis of creating. For the basis of feeling appreciation of creating because creating while using appreciation is joy. You are experiencing an enormous amount of joy from appreciating something you are creating, or experiencing and there by creating.
A person can also appreciate what we already have. It’s even better because then we create more of it and better. As an exsaple my pair of shoes. I really feel them, I feel my shoes, how I fit in my shoes, and I appreciate how nice they fit, how good a grip they’ve got, and how I can walk all day on them and not get sore feet and how airy they are because my feet don’t sweat in them. I always feel good in these shoes I like these shoes. Now I’m appreciating them. Now at the same time the Universe is creating another pair for me. But a creation through appreciation is pouring more love into it, which then the next pair of shoes will be everything these are, plus… In other words they will be even better because appreciating is pouring love into it, and it will be re-created with the new level of love that has been poured into it, them. In the past shoos where a real problem for me.
It’s been one heck of a week! For a few days I was just totally feeling down. I don’t know what I had? It’s something pretty bizarre I was totally out of energy. Amazingly depressed and just totally down, I couldn’t shake myself out of it. It was just most bizarre thing. Yet I wasn’t reallysick. Maybe my body was just tired and wore out. I spent most of my time sleeping, resting… And all of a sudden it broke – bang! I could feel it. Mid-afternoon it changed and all of a sudden I started feeling better and now I’m feeling normal again.
Change and making changes can be draining to the extreme some times, that’s why sometimes it feels good to feel rotten because I know my life is changing for the better.
Except for the strange thoughts I was having.
Spent my whole life trying to figure out how the Universe works and where we are. I have a lot of it worked out, I still slip back into this strange thought pattern. You know, today I was buying some foam fenders for my dinghy (small boat) for a minute I looked at what I was buying and thought “Oh, man, here is some more oil by-product stuff that’s going to end up floating somewhere in the ocean and end up on a beach and…” Oh, we just create so much stuff and so much waste and… this morning I was carrying the garbage out and I have these 2 bags of garbage and they are full of tin cans, plastic and paper… I swear, they weigh more, than the groceries, that they came in when I carried the whole thing in from the grocery store in the first place. It’s like… And I just kind of ... Feel bad. It’s like I want to do better, help the environment and consume less. At the same time I remember that the Universe expands to accommodate what we need and desire, so there is always enough.
I think we could do better in those areas. It requires a whole lot of effort. Anyway, then I remind myself “You know, this world is really an illusion.” I mean, we created this for the experience and it will never be perfect because in a sense it is imperfect and it’s supposed to be imperfect. That’s the thing, that’s what makes it!
Then I started thinking about my game again and how people, souls, beings, whatever, come here to experience battle. I’ve talked to other people abut this a few times and they looked at me strangely and they say: “No, nobody would come to this planet to experience war, killing and blood and so forth”.
You know, I just look at them and I say “Really? Are you sure about that?”
”Positive!” Thay anser
“Do you watch movies?” I ask
They say: “With blood and gore and… Yes”.
“You watch it, but you would never actually do it physically?”
And they go: “No.”
But you’ll watch it? …
I just stop teasing at that point because I realize, they are not really getting it. You see we are here because we wanted to be here. We didn’t come here to save a planet, to save people. We came here just for experience! I don’t mean experience as in need to have experience, just for the experience. Just to experience things. That’s it, that’s what we came here for.
What we forgot is that we have the abilities to direct what we experience and how to do it and so we become victims because of the lack of knowledge of our own power. Change if that is what we want can only happen if we first believe we have been given the power to do so.
Obviously no one is coming to do it for us that would remove the very foundation of the universe, which is freedom to choose. Can you believe you have the power to change your life experience to that which you want? That is what we are doing with the 3.6 mil we are remembering how to direct our life experience.
Damn, I’m always pressing the wrong buttons on this little gadget. It’s only 3 buttons, good thing, and I press the wrong one.
Click. Click.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking about it some more, running it through my mind. The game I like the very most, computer game – love to play it – is “1942 Battlefield”. I mean, it’s a war game; it’s a total war game. You fly planes, you drive jeeps, you can go on a submarine, helicopter, various planes from jets to prop planes, machine guns, hand guns and shotguns, you name it, everything is in there even, huh, rocket launchers, jet-pack rockets, James Bond type equipment… all kinds of cool stuff.
Anyway, the point is it’s a battle, right? So, I’ve been thinking about that. Sometimes when I play that game Roberta gets upset and I don’t fully understand why? She just says… Looks at me… Because I do play when I get in I play for… Oh, I can play for quite a few hours. Sometimes if I’m by myself I’ve played an entire day! Is that bad? Well then I'm a “bad ass”.
Roody is whining. He sees a raccoon about a hundred yards from here. He’s got his ears up and just watching it intently. He feels he should run up there and… do something. Probably, doesn’t have a clue what, but he should run up there!
“I need to run up there,” he says. “NOW!”
Obviously I am recording this outside on the edge of the woods by the water. This is my office its not a bad office, sometimes it rains, other times there are people traipsing around in my office, you’d think it’s a public park or something.
Anyway, my game I don’t know, maybe some day someone is actually going to listen to this and if someone does – maybe agree, maybe disagree, but the game is very intense and while I play it, for a short time the world around me disappears I’m basically in the game. They have something in the game they call “spawning” so if you die, you just re-spawn. The only thing is you don’t have to go through the whole rebirth system; you just come back to life somewhere at various spots. Then you can continue on the game.
So, in a sense, why do we play that? I mean, if we find war and violence so bad why do we play that? Of course some people “Oh, wouldn’t play that, no matter what. That’s disgusting! You are killing people. Wouldn’t play that! I want nothing to do with that they say.” And I can understand that. Sure, if that’s how you feel, there is plenty of space in this world where there is total peace and you can live in peace. Once you know how to create that.
Now, if that’s what you want, you can have it. But you can not create an entire Universe or… Why, you could create, sure you could create an entire Universe but all of existence, all that is, can not all be created just in what you want, because then there would be no choice. So that would mean I would not be allowed to play my game.
Now, you know, sometimes when I talked about this in the past people would go: “OK, if I’m a soul and if I’m all-knowing when I’m a soul, why would I waste my time coming here and not remember anything?” Oh, that’s part of the game. That’s why, mixed games are so good you don’t remember how you are and every one has a different opinion. Once you learn to create what you want to experience, you’ll have a choice and so will I. We can both have what we want.
The game is a good example. The next stage of playing this computer game would be to step even more into the game. In other words, for that short time forgetting fully who you are on the outside So that virtually all you remember is that game that you are in it would be your life. But that sounds kind of scary, doesn’t it? Well, and probably would be scary because some of the companies that make these computer games…could who knows? Frankly I don’t care to think about that at this moment. Regardless, I love the game and… yeah, I would probably, cautiously at first, take it to the next level, see? Because I think, that’s how I got here in the first place. Well, I don’t think, I’m 100 percent positive “I know for sure”. Well, that’s questionable, because in a reality that is part illusion, and expands and contracts and re-creates itself, in every moment simulating a past and the future and the present all at the same time it’s pretty [carefree to say] “I know for sure” because nothing is really for sure.
Putting that aside, I’m pretty positive, that’s one of the many reasons why I came here to play that game, to experience the game of life. Because I love to experience stuff that makes your spine tingle now, I also love to experience peace tranquility and such. See, somehow my life is kind of a combination and I have quite a lot of conscious control over my experience. I’m not locked into a battle, although if I physically wanted to experience battle physically, I could go to places on this planet and physically experience it. Almost anything, in a sense, you could want is here, at least the things that belong to a three-dimensional world or framework.
So, here we are now… Oh, yah, yah, yah – that’s what I wanted to say when… Because when I talk to people about that, then they say, “Well, I’m sure as a soul you could be all-knowing and understanding, then, you come here, you loose your memory and you come here.” Oh, I don’t think it’s quite that way. See, what I found is that it’s stages. Yes, we are all so large, that is a very large being capable of creating and knowing everything. Matter of fact, so large, that when we come across it, we see ourselves like a God that large. In that sense I’m not saying God in that sense, but in comparison. Some others have found this also that have done some… quite some distance traveling, what you might call “out of body traveling” or various other traveling. Anyway, they came to the same conclusion that we are dropping down in stages to this life.
So, in a sense as a soul, I’ve been envisioning myself in a physical body. I have basically disconnected my memory, although it’s in there, in my brain. My brain is big enough to carry an awful lot of information much more than I even use to play the game less than 1 percent.
So I then, now I play the game, and inside the game I play another game I’ve created a computer system. A virtual world that I can enter to play another game, isn’t that amazing?
Now, if I take that little computer game one more stage where, let’s say, I can lock myself in it for 8 hours (whatever the game be) and remove for that 8 hours my memory of who I am in my life. So that I’d be virtually locked in this with virtual memory and that would become my life whatever, however that is. Whatever and wherever… What I’m trying to say here is that game would be all I know for that time that I’m in it. Nothing else would I know? And however restrictive that is, however big the world is and whatever equipment is in the world, and whatever parameters are programmed in, in other words… I’m living in that “Battlefield 1942” and let’s say we’ve expanded the game somewhat so that more things can happen. Basically, you would spring back to life if killed full-bodied. Interesting! Impossible? No, not if you don’t know any different, that’s the way it is. Here we come back to life in a sense by being born and so forth, and then being raised and taught, that’s just one method. In this game we would know of no other ways we would only know of being spawned. And there it is – Fred has died and here he is back! And he is back with all of his memory – cool!
Providing that’s the way we put it into the parameters of the computer system. So now, if we put it into parameters, that while I’m in the game, I can build stuff, because we have in the game what we call medics, healers, mechanics whom can actually fix tanks, and we can expand it to builders. And apparently there is a new game coming out where mechanic can also rebuild the bridge that’s been blown apart. You see, how the game is already expanding? Pretty soon you have a whole virtual world going there.
Now you can also expand this world more, where if you travel further across lands and sea, you would come across another country in this world, where perhaps people are living differently, like in a form of Stone Age tribes. Because that’s the kind of experience that some people are into as in a game that’s called… Oh, I can’t remember the game, but you start off in a Stone Age and you build a civilization –?? Brick by brick and then you go to the Bronze Age and the Steel Age and… and so on through the ages and from swords to arrows to… to machines and to building castles and so forth.
Oh, let’s say, we’ve expanded the computer system where it actually can connect into another game, being played somewhere else. So you would travel, travel, travel into the distant world and you would come to a place where people are still in a Stone Age. There they are! Living like… well, we saw people living in Africa. The way they live in the jungle.
You know, ha! Of course, there is a whole lot of things right there we went and judged that, didn’t we? They are un-civilized, not as far advanced as us, and so and so forth. But if you look at that from the standpoint of this game then they are just as advanced, they are just playing a little bit different game. And the parameters of the game’s been set up that the two can interlink and over mesh with each other to allow unexpected outcomes and a great variable of outcomes.
And that is what could be called magic………….think where are you right now…? I have just told you where you are… now believe in yourself and your abilities to direct the game for the experience you want. A place for you to live your way, it will be created complete with others to share your dream with no need to destroy mine whatever that may be. Se now ad one more thing to the game the ability to have every thing created for you that you want to experience by a method of appreciation and mentally experiencing what you want. Get it?
Oh, starting to sound like an interesting game! If you actually went around and polled all the gamers, people who like to play games, like myself, and say “Would you go into something like that, where you can get hooked in (of course, after it being tested and safe) and you can stay in it for an entire year. Your body would be supported and looked after, and you would loose your memory of who you are, and you would be emerged into this game of your choosing, whatever it is. And of course parameters set of your choosing and so forth. And you would be matched with people of like minded or not depending on what you decide.” Of course, things would change once you are there, wouldn’t they? Things would change quite a bit because the game just plays. And you change as you play the game.
A-a-ah! Is it starting to sound pretty familiar? Isn’t it? Starting to sound like home?
It won't be real you say! Well that’s what you said about this one. Now it seems a little too real, matter of fact its all there is…
See, that removes the learning part. See, we didn’t come here to learn we came here to experience. Now, again, we could say, “No one would be going to war. War is ugly, there is no joy in it.” Yet, I play the game of war and I enjoy it very much. It gives me great joy. There are also other games, I like to play, games that tackle your mind, push you to think and ask questions. This is a game we are playing right now. We are pushing the outer limits, and saying “What if? Is this a possibility? Does this sound good? Does this make sense?” And maybe doing so in itself, the virtual world that we are in at this moment – probable reality – adjusts itself to the very thing we just said. Thereby proving its self as we accept it.
A-a-ah, that raises some questions, doesn’t it?
Can we adjust the game from inside the game????????
Stop and answer the question!
All of this would be a total waste of time if it did not.
Anyway, back to the point of what you find joyful, or I find joyful, or Frank finds joyful. We can’t really question that. Some people’s joy could be twisted, really twisted, could even be sick in comparison to what we think. You know, there comes a whole… a whole very scary thing here. Because, yah, if the Universe is that open, to anything you want… Well, it would be open to some pretty ugliness too, wouldn’t it? It also makes it scary because where is the line of right and wrong? Well, as soon as you say, someone will jump up and say: “Well, in a computer game you are not actually killing anyone, so it’s not really wrong. But in life if you kill someone... yes its wrong.”
But if you are going to this computer game and that’s where you are, and if you kill, that’s what it is, and while you are in there it’s all you know exists… That is existence; you don’t know any other existence. Then someone in there could say, “This is wrong. Killing is wrong!” The game begins to change, change to what? I guess we'll see! That’s what we are doing right now we are changing the game.
What a dilemma! I mean, how do you really put this? You can’t run around inside the game, obviously, and say, well: “Killing is wrong!” Well, that’s ridiculous, right? And yet there is the right to do so. So… because we don’t like something, we say its not possible but the universe is based on freedom to choose whether we think it safe or not, see?
When we follow a path to answers, we come across a point. And at that point we go “Oh, wait a minute! Oh, no, no, no. This… I don’t like. Because it doesn’t make sense First of all it’s dangerous to me, it scares me and someone else could do something awful, ugly with it, using that as a justification.” And that’s really what we’re afraid of, right? That someone else would use something like this as a justification for something bad. That’s the irony of it. Sometimes that’s the irony of knowledge. That’s why they say, “Sometimes knowledge can be dangerous, scary, whatever.”
So when we look at that, it’s easy enough to say “Well, I’d rather take a step back,” and just say this is this way and… I’d rather say “I’d rather be a Buddhist,” and “I like a framework that’s different with borders just like the games we play. That’s safe for me. I’d rather be a Christian, I’d rather be Jewish, I’d rather be this…” That makes sense, you see? Because we are picking a game for ourselves that’s safe for us that we feel comfortable in and I guess that’s really what it is about we have to find the place where we are comfortable in and flow along with that. And not so much try to change everyone else, or the world, or the Universe, or how it’s been created, or how it works, but instead to do things…. Two very simple things, One – follow our joy, i